Chrismas Day Celebration.....

A week ago, my friends and I busy preparing the presentations for Christmas Eve, 24 December 2006. All of us were tired and exhausted for the dance and sketch that we are preparing for God. It was tired and busy days a week ago because almost 7 days every week after back from Impact Generation camp, we got to start working for the presentation because it’s just a 2 weeks later. It was fun and exciting. Though it was very tired till less of sleep, we had learn that our relationship with God had strengthen and the relationship of each of others in the dance team. But there some of us had not strengthened the relationship. It’s depends to them. So many things I had learned this year, the year of breakthrough I can pronounce it. Though the pass hurts and sadness has gone, it help me to learn to stand up for Jesus, stand up to walk this road to a close relationship with God. On Christmas day, I get 3 gifts; one of it was a beautiful and funky t-shirt from my closest friend, Gabriel. It was cool and great to have a t-shirt. One of it is a multi-purpose thing, I don’t how to described it and one is a gift I yet not received yet from 2 beautiful gals in the youth gangs. I hope next year is the year to advance for the Lord. The year that I learned to face, the year of suffering of study for the exam called STPM. God, You will lead me till the end.

IMPACT GENERATION CAMP…

A few weeks ago, my friends and I go to the diocese English youth camp held in All Saints’ Cathedral, KK. Our church youth, which are around 30 people, had joined the camp. It was a great camp that I had ever joined before. The first camp that I had so much breakthrough in it. What matters the most is the relationship with God has been increased into a deeper level. It was fun and great. The worship was great. I get know many new friends and meet my loving sister in the camp. I was miss my sister so much. She was the mentor of my spiritual life in my relationship with God. Anyways, I do no why recently I do no what to type in my blog. Here’s some picture in the camp. It’s was a great moment in my life.

I need to blame the camera man for his/her skill. Just kiding for the camera man. LOL...too blurr...Hey, why ah zung see the sky? Oh...he must see some chicks up there..haha..


The sneaker of the year, that's me. I'm innocent. Don't shoot me. The face...lol. Sneak at 3 person head. If you see clearly, Gabriel's mouth still got chicken in it. Haha. A pirate eyes at my back..hehe..just kiding my friend.


The awesome, delicious and juicy maggi mee that i'm eating.Wah so deliciciuos that look whle it may work to tempt others to eat. LOL..hey eric is promoting the handphone.


It's ah zung's birthday. He is so happy with the double chocolate cake, CAKIE. Haha, it's just a moisture chocolate cake with some grapes on it.


The cutting of cakie by ah zung. Wah waiting to eat it delicious cake....Nyam Nyam...


I and my sister, jenny in the camp at the last night of the camp. Miss her so much....


Our Xone gangs of St Michael Church, hey...why ah chuen at the back like want to bless us?? Haha...

Thank you, God for giving me a life that so blessed and joyful.

On Mission.....

Starting by tommorow, i will be going a short term mission trip to nangod, sugut and paitan (interior of Sabah) for 3 days and 2 night. Going to spread the gospel of God to the lost souls. May God protects me. I prayed that He will guide all of the mission team all the days of our trip.

Speechless......

I had been bored and speechless yesterday. Do no what had happen to me? Sigh..donno wat to say. That why i put the title"speechless". 2 more days , i will go to mission to Sugut in the interior of Sabah. Hope i can do well. Sigh....

Thank you God ('',)

Thank You God.

For You had guide till this days.

Though there was been many seasons.

Seasons of joy and sorrow.

Though it is hard to endure

but worth to do it.

For it bring to the eternal life,

a close relationship to You, Lord.

God, i thank you that given me friends

that guide me, bear my burden,

share my emotions, listen to me and share joy.

Thanks that You had given me, 2 loving sister,

though they were busy in their life,

still take some times to help me,

loving me and cares for me.

Lord, i thank You for them.

Till now You had guide me.

To path of a close relationship with You.

Thank You, God.

Psalm 27


The Lord is my light and my salvation
so why should I afraid?
The Lord protects me from danger
so why should I tremble?
When evil people come to destroy me,
when my enemies and foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
Though a mighty army surrounds me,
my heart will know no fear.
Even if they attack me, I remain confident.
The one thing I ask of the Lord
the things I seek most
is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
delighting in the Lord's perfections
and meditating in his Temple.
For he will conceal me there when troubles come;

he will hide me in his sanctuary.

He will place me out of reach on a high rock.

Then I will hold my head high,

above my enemies who surround me.

At his Tabernacle I will offer sacrifices

with shouts of joy,

singing and praising the Lord with music.

Listen to my pleading, O Lord.

Be merciful and answer me!

My heart has heard you say,

"Come and talk with me."

And my heart responds, "Lord, I am coming."

Do not hide yourself from me.

Do not reject your servant in anger.

You have always been my helper.

Don;t leave me now; don't abandon me,

O God of my salvation!

Even if my father and mother abandon me,

the Lord will hold me close.

Teach me how to live, O Lord.

Lead me along the path of honesty,

for my enemies are waiting for me to fall.

Do not let me fall into my hands.

for they accuse me of things I've never done

and breathe out violence against me.

Yet I am confident that I will see the Lord's goodness

while I am here in the land of the living.

Wait patiently for the Lord.

Be brave and courageous.

Yes, wit patiently for the Lord.

(Scripture from New Living Translation Bible)

Failed…




I had failed. I failed my exam. I get the second lowest in my class. I was wondering what had happen to me. I still don’t know where I want to study in my future. I seem hopeless and sad. Many things had happened to my life. Misunderstanding relationship, friends will or might go to leave my hometown, church life, talking skill, fake mask, and others. What happen to me? I wasted so much time in this year. Till now I don’t know what I want to do in my future. It’s waste me a year. Sigh…sigh…seems hopeless to me. I have faith in God that He will lead me but I myself having problems. I want this and I want that. Sigh…. I also wasted my parent’s money to play at cyber cafes. Wasted so much money. Why did I go there to play? I hate to bore. I want to get off from boredom. In this age, many things changed. People surrounding had changed. Some were good and some were bad. Thank God for those who had changed to good. I now was self-pity. I have sin against God. I keep doing things that I should not do even I had prayed to God. Sigh. The person or character that I hate the most is hypocrite. Even I myself almost like them. Sigh. Sigh. I’m confused. I also want a girl friend in this time. Sigh. So I can know girls more and more. I’m 18 now and still never dated before. I know God will give the best but I’m not patient and causing myself hurt during the misunderstanding relationship recently. During the moment, I was hurt and rejected. What I had lacked off? Is that I’m not handsome enough or good enough? A guy who loves God and a heart to serve God, she can’t see. Sigh. I let it. Just continue the friendship. I’m too selfish during that time. I felt I was wasted so much time on it till my study had been neglected. Not the moment too, I’m too caring for my “kei mui” too, I was cared her till she was sensitive too me. What should I do? Serve man is never been easy. That’s why my sis told me that I should serve God because it’s eternal. I still confused of myself and I felt I was a failure. Sigh. Lord what should I do? Guide me, Jesus. For you are my strength and comforter. Jesus guides me till the eternity. Sigh…

Friends.....

Friends. It really matters to me for my life. They shared with me. My sorrow, sadness, serving, happiness, and etc. The friends that helps me is my friends in church. They impact my life to serve God. I thanls God that He has given friends that helps me and guide me. Hehe....in the upside pic, the first guy from left is my best friend, Gabriel then Rev Clarence Fu, our new rector of St Michael Church, then Fei Ping, a friend and leader to me in my youth fellowship and in worship team and the last guy is me who wear bodyglove t-shirt. I not so know my rector because i quite scare him. Donno why. I know him is a vision man and godly man. This picture is taken from the BM JAM+2 concert a month ago. Friend in my church had help me much in my life. We work together and go around together. It was a great moment in my life in church. Yet sometimes i felt alone because i don't have a girl friend but God has given me friends that cares me by my side. A month ago, i got some problems in my life. A misunderstanding relationship with a close girl friend of mine. She is too close to me till I was misunderstood of her and I began have feeling on her. I said my feeling to her that i got some feeling to her, she just said that i just been a good friend to her. Nothing more than that. I had been make 3 times confirmation on it and yet she said the same. It's makes me hurts because of this misunderstanding but teaches me to patiently wait from God that He will provide a best girl friend to me. I am still single and never been date before. Just sometimes, when I'm 18 years old, these kind of feeling that bring me to find a gal for me. But i still not yet mature and responsible, so I wait and prayed to God about it.

Lazy to talk more on it. Just makes me think too much on it then think negative on it. Today, i was lazy to go to school. Yesterday, i was too tired in the church. I slept late then in my youth cell time, they play games in the hill in Taman Tshun Ngen. The places were hard to trek. I was been already too tired because lackness of rest yet need to trek the hill ah. It's makes me too tired. Then I need to back to church to practise carolling and interchurch worship practise, makes me more tired. I was too busy to run there around in the church to take cables and sit back to the sits of choirs. I was one of the choirs in the interchurch project. Yet that moment I need to help my friend, Wai yee to help in sound management. Makes me more tired and no mood to talk. Yet i need some words of encouragement at my side, no one said it to me. Sigh but some of them still can ask me how r u?

Friends really matters to me. For me, friends that put me in their heart matters to me. I thank for friends that cares me a lot in my youth life. I really miss my brother in Christ, Ah Chuen in KK. He is the guy that guides me much in my church life. Gabriel and Joash too. This 3 guys had help me much in my life. They were my 3 best friends in my life. Girls ah. Less because I still donno how to talk with girls yet. But I will try my best to cherish my friendship with my girl friends. I admit that I am quite a silent person. Maybe is that reason that i seldom talk much with girls la. Now I was still learning to get know with girls. I will know that God will guide me in my life. I wish that I will be in the youth camp earlier so I can get know more girls. Hehe. I need to cherish my friends that guide me much. Thank you God for you given me friends.

Living Out From Fantasy World. A Step In A Real World......

It has been a long time i had not updated my blog. My pc condemn for a month already. Now just get fixed up. As we were teen, we tend to see many kind of entertainment. Entertainment such as watching drama, movie, tv, playing computer games, disco, and etc. It's normal for us human to seek entertainment because we need to release our stress, problem and bored. Mostly we tend to live in a fantasy world from the entertainment. If we too obsess to entertainment (playing computer ganes or watch movie, drama or tv), we will fantay in it. For example, we fantasy about the lovers in a love drama or fansay of being a victorious warrior in a adventureous world in the computer games. If we too fantasy about it, we might or will live in those fantasy. Living in the fantasy world cause us to avoid to be real in a real world. Certain problems in our life, we should not in a fantasy mode (dreaming not to face the problem). Instead, we should responsible on the problem that we had done and find ways to save it. It's better to find ways to solve it than just dreaming or fantasy in the mind. It waste time to fantasy. It saves our time when we go to find ways to solve the problem instead leaving it alone or lazy to deal it. One thing that is we should seek God's help to help us to solve the matter. We can't solve the problems in our lofe by ourself because our strength are limited. If we do it by our own strength till the final stage, we will get tired, depress and no mood. By God, we can did it. God will guide us in it and he will bless us more than we expected. It's help us to strengthen our faith in Him. Anyways, it better for us to solve it in a real world than just leave it and fantasy in tv or etc.

Gossip.....A Plague That Destroy Relationship......

Gossip.....A plague that will destroy relationship. It just like a fire burns the whole village. Gossip had been a bad things in life. Why people love to gossip? Aren't they will bored of gossip people that is innocent. Even it is real, speak frankly to the person that should know. Why people need to spread gossip that can hurt people. Haven't they think that when other person gossip at them, how will they fell. It's very hurtful. Even it can make people not trusted to the person who gossip around and the people around him/her. It's makes relationship broken. If the member of a team or an organization will split up into different group and will not united together. Gossip is like a plague that had affected people in my hometown. A single gossip can make people not trust you again. If a gossip spread around in a church, the church will not united as one body. We will fall apart and unable to united together to serving God. That why I sick of gossip and lies. I decided to speak frankly and honestly. I had known the consequences of spreading gossip. It was cruel thing that had hurt much people. As christian, we must not gossip. We must encourage our friends and leader all the time instead of spreading cruel and hurtful gossip.
In James 3: 2 - 6 in the Bible (New Living Translation):

"We all make many mistakes, but those who control their tongues can also themselves in every other way. We can make a large horse turn around and go wherever we want by means of a small bit in its mouth. And a tiny rubber makes a huge ship turn wherever the pilot wants it to go, even though the winds are strong. So also, the tongue is a small thing, but what enormous damage it can do. A tiny spark can get a great forest on fire. And the tongue is a flame of fire. It is full of wickness that can ruin your whole life. It can turn the entire course of your life into a blazing flame of destruction, for it is set on fire by hell itself."

That is why gossip is a bad things in our life. It hurt people heart. Just like backstab a person.

What Happens When We Lie?
• We damage relationships with others

• We poison our own soul
Psalms 58: 3 – 4 “Even from birth the wicked go astray; from the womb they are wayward and speak lies. Their venom is like the venom of a snake, like that of a cobra that has stopped its ears.”

• We will face God’s judgment
Revelations 21: 8 “…all liars - their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death.”

: A one of the weekly sermon at Church of Holy Saviour, Labuan http://www.cohs.info/sermons.htm

We should speak frankly to people because gossip hurt people's heart. If a heart had been hurt, it's hard to heal. The truth will set you free.

Among The Differences

I had dream before to write a book that title's "Among The Differences", a story about how to became a friends among different people and races. Recently, i had just drove my dad's car and i had not drove it well because i still not used to it. My father scolded my all my way to drive the car because i still seems nervous and not used of the car. Sigh....me might get a "saman" from a police because driving so fast when turn to left/right. Sigh.....my fathers always scold me when i drive the car careless, but i must learn to patient from my father oh because he is an very easily angry person oh. Actually my father is an ok and caring person but he sometimes scolded people don't see the condition. Among the difference, i used to be among different people with different age, group, races and custom. I can used to have friend with malays, chinese, indian(that ok a bit lah because not very used to them) and kadazan. I less though off reputation, ranks, and wealth to see people but sometimes see at face la. I got work at church as a youth volunteer for 3 month, so i get used with my kadazan (speak malay one lah) friends and i had gone to the kampung (village) or at BDC(a place where many foreign citizen lives and a poverty) to have a ministry (children ministry) and helping to takes some clothes to give to the kids at there. It's a good time because I had never gone there. Among different people is something that i already used to be. My best friends from the youth cell are someones is from different background and family. They had help me much in my life. I just now realized that God had given me many different kinds of friends in my life. Thanks God. I never look down on the malay spoken people but i just don't like some of them whose attidude that is not very good. Mostly chinese people at my school (now la) not very used with malay people but i can interact with some of them. Crazy around with them, jokes around, and etc. It's a good moment when we are among differences people because everyone in this world is unique. Yet I still learn to comunicate with people well (especially girls) and ask God for a willing heart to help me. Wah, what a unique group that consist people that are from different background, races, and etc and work together up. Oh Lord guide me through my social life. Tonight I need to pray to God oh. Today i got learn about disipline of prayer from the sermon. The rector said that prayer can lead you to have a good relationship with Him and comunicate with Him. I need to pray much oh because I seldom pray already. I want to discipline myself to pray everyday so that i can learn and have a good relationship with God. Now i heard the songs from the album: Hillsong United We Stand, it's a good songs to hear and learn. I wish that our youth will be like the youth in Hillsong church. It'll be great that we are among thousands of youth to praise God like the concert in Hillsong and Planetshakers. I just recently get my sister comment and read some blog at the local churches in Sabah. It said that willing is a key to have faith with God. I ask God for a willing heart. O Lord strengthen me through out my life.

At Last, A Hope Can Be Find......

For a few days ago, a long weakness still hidden in me came out to haunted me in my life. This problem is from my fear during my schoolhood in secondary school. I always asking myself why I always been quiet and silent people. What wrong with me. Why I will become the most silent people in the class while I was studying for 5 years in my ex-secondary school. Actually I had a problem in comunication problem with people especially talking to girls. It's was my one of my weakness that I had afraid of for a long time in my life. It was a social problem that I had burried in my heart for a long time. It's almost every guys' problem. This haunted weakness had making me so afraid and bored for many days. I had seek for many of my friends' advices that can help me throughout this weakness I had. Human are not perfect. At last, I got a very helping advice today from a friend of mine, Joash that help me much in my life. He said that I had not open up myself for a long time. As I was in a plastic wrap, wrapping myself up into it and stuck myself into it. It's been a long time that I had not open myself of the plastic wrap for a long time. He said I should try my best to came out from plastic wrap and set free myself. It must gone through a long painful path to learn to be open up myself up. To be open is mean open minded when to comunicate, thinking and etc. To see things wider than before. I was been afraid that when I talk to a new person especially girls, I was afraid that I will be look down or saying that I am weird or etc. The reality is when you treat a person well, they will treat you well as he told to me. Even afraid of been rejected or saying that I am weird or etc, take the first step to know someone you wish to know and have a friendship with them. It' cannot by force because I might hurt people feeling just like I pour a glass of cold water to a glass of hot water immediately, it will shatter the glass into pieces. That mean doing things that mean by force can hurt someone else. Every thing is start from the bottom to the highest place. It'll be the a painfull walk to open up myself to be a better person. It's need sacrifice. Just like Jesus that loves us all even we are sinner because he already been through all the challenges and make a sacrifice to all the mankind of the earth so that we can have a relationship with God. Even though we are sinner before God and we are dirty to face a holy God, He choose to sacrifice himself as a Lamb Of God to get us all to have a relationship with Him. He choose to love us unconditionaly even we are sinner. Just as like Jesus, i as christian want to love people unconditionaly and don't expect any gift or a return back to me. It's a hard and painful road to walk through but after it I will get something that is more precious than things in the world which is love and the friendship I have and cherished. I must began to lay down my burden to God so that I will not suffer so much to have this big burden. God had told us give our burden to Him so we can set free ourselves and have faith in Him. Joash said that I was like a guy with a full sack of things walking in the desert for a long time to some place. Suddenly a guy with a car came through ask I for a lift to his car because we are on the same destination. I agree and get into his car and he began to drive the car. Yet I was in the car, I had not put down my sack of things down into the car instead standing with the sack and standing on the car. Joash said that I had not yet learn to put down the sack and rest in the car. God was like the driver in the car that He can help you to reduce your tiredness lifting a full sack of burden. I was just like the guy that lifting the sack and standing on the car. If I had put down all things on it, i can rest and refresh again. It's need faith that give all the burden to Jesus. Oh, I need to prayed this night for all the problem I had. Oh Lord refresh my life.

Yahoo.....At Last I Pass It....the test of driving a car....

Yahoo........at last I pass my JPJ road test. Last time, I fail it and I need to retest again. But this time I pass it and I can get license to drive a car. To drive my father's car. I was afraid and nervous when I test again the road test. I prayed to God that He will strengthen me through my test. Thank God, I pass it. If have faith in Him, anything can be happen. Praise God for making me not nervous when I on the test. Happy for me because I can drive car loh........yeah...yeah...

Bored.....Nothing To Do Yet Lazy Around At Home...

Sigh.....I had fail my car license test last thursday. So very unlcky because when I began to test the main road test which test about your driving skill at the main road, I got a very bad, old and useless car and a very strict and bad JPJ test officer. While I driving into the Road B, I had arrived at the airport place and stop at the white line for began to look the car at my left and right, the car off engine and I can't concentrate at my right side to see the car at my right side and I just went up to the road and the JPJ guy said that he see many car go through and he tick that I drive with danger. Just like that I had fail my test. So I need to test again after 8 days. So unlucky because I fail it. Anyway, I am bored at home oh. Lazy around and many homework not yet to be done. Very bored because very lonely at home. After this holiday, many test will began at school day. Form 6 might very hard oh. Donno what will I do. Sigh....very bored oh........

True Or False.....


It was great having a holiday at KK from wednesday to saturday. I got buy a pair of shoes, watch and some clothes for my daily needs. Many problem had happen during my family and I on the trip to KK and back from KK. The car got cooling problem and it easy to heat up while driving up to the hill. Many times that we stop at some places at the road to cool up the car engine and the radiator by filling up with cool water. But God really help us to have a safe journey back home last saturday because had many problem already. We had prayed that God help us and it really work. While I was in KK, I saw many things in the TV and the cinema. Many false teaching and gospel had affected our christian faith. Movie and documentary such as The Da Vinci Code and The Gospel of Judas. These thing is the gnostic gospel which twisted the truth long ago during the early church. It twisted the very foundation of Christianity. (It said that that salvation is not based in faith in the sacrificial death and resurrection of Jesus, but in one's own efforts to gain secret knowledge that will lead to "enlightenment". Gnosticism promotes ideas which are popular with many today seeking an easy, compromising "religion" -- the notion that we are essentially "good" at the core, that there is no such thing as sin, that there are many ways to the truth, that there is no need for redemption or a Redeemer, and that we can of our own efforts attain oneness with God. Fact is, the Bible teaches that "The hear is deceitful and desperately wicked -- who can know it?", and that "All have sinned, and fallen short of the glory of God. Jesus said that "I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life -- no one comes to the Father except by Me." Gnosticism is far far removed from the teachings of Jesus and the central truths of Christianity.) text from http://www.evidencetobelieve.net/da_vinci_code_truth.htm. Many false teaching and story came to deceive us and let us astray and let us away from the love of God. It makes us doubt about God. Just like what the Bible has tell us at 1 John 4: 1 to 6 :

[Dear friends, do not believe everyone who claim to speak by the Spirit. You must test them to see if the spirit they have comes from God. For there are many false prophets in the world. This is a the way to find out if they have the Spirit of God: If a prophet acknowledges that Jesus Christ became human being, that person has the Spirit of God. If a prophet does not acknowledge Jesus, that person is not from God. Such a personm has the spirit of Antichrist. You have heard that he is going to come into the world, and he is already here. But you belong to God, my dear children. You have already won your fight with these false prophet, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in this world. These people belongs to this world, so they speak from the world's view-point, and the world listen to them. But we belong to God; that is why those who know God listen to us. If they do not belong to God, they do not listen to us. That how we know if someone has the Spirit of truth or the spirit of deception.]

That why we who is a Christian must stay in our faith in God. We must wear the armour of God to defend ourselves from false teaching. That why we must read the Bible to know clearly about the Truth. We must have strong faith in God and know the Word of God to know what is true and false.
I now must read bible everyday because I want to know God better and stand firmly in the truth.

To get better information:

The Gnostic Gospel: http://www.evidencetobelieve.net/gnostic_gospels.htm
Truth and the Da Vinci Code: http://www.evidencetobelieve.net/da_vinci_code_truth.htm
Fact about Gospel of Judas: http://www.christiancentury.org/article.lasso?id=1594

What So Important........

What so important of this job yet people don't see your greatness. This question doubt me for a long time ago when the first time I join the praise team . I have been in the job that called LCD projectorist or song slide projectorist. This is the job which I needed to show the words of the song into the screen to lead people to see and sing. Actually it is a very important job just as the sound engineer in the church. You needed focus at the worship song that the vocalist sing and follow each of their words that came out from their mouth. Each of their sign needed to be focus and know what they will sing to which part like chorus or etc. Yet this job is the most people don't want to do because it not as cool and great as the musician and worship leader. This job is the back stage job that help the worship to lead the people to sing the song that they not ussually remember the lyric of the song. Just like the PA sound man or called sound engineer, is the back stage job which people don't see you much and sees you as an easy job. I have been a LCD projectorist at my church for 6 years and just recently I just know how to manage a good quality of sound as a sound man at the PA or sound system. Many people sees me that my job is easy job and just press the button. I also have been doubt for my job. For many years, God really guide me through this job although people don't see me as an important person in the worship team. Yet many advice that my friends, leaders and my sisters said that all we do is to serve God only not to promoting you or to man. It's really an courage words to me for many years. Today, I went to my youth cell group, a leader which is my friend too who called Ah Yeing said much about her preaching. She said tha when you are in any ministry, we serve as a body or as a team. Church is like a body which got many kinds of ministry. If one of the hands cut of, can the body works well as usual. Of course not. Just like the praise and worship team in the church, everyone in the team plays a very important role although people don't sees the back stage role like sound man or LCD projectorist also play a very important role. If the LCD guy not at the computer or the projector, how can the new christian or people who don't know the songs can sing the song that the worship leader sings. Even though some people can memorize the lyric of the songs yet they still have weakness to forgot the lyric too. Sound man too because he is the one who manage the sound in a stage or church to be a better quality of acoustic sound in the praise and worship time. If he is not there, who control the sound system. Even though someone know a little bit of it yet is not as good as the usual sound man who at there to make the worship live and make the congregation to sing pleasantly. Worship leader too because if the worship leader is not at the team when practise or during times of worship, no one can lead the people to worship. The musician too because if one of the musician like the guitarist have not come during the times of worship, the music that played out may not as good as usual. Everyone in a ministry play a very important role even the one who gets the less attention. Just have to know that who we got to serve. We are serving God not serving man. That why this words makes me untill now I am still the projectorist and I have learn much with computer things untill I can design a poster for some multimedia presention. The Festival Of Praise 2006, Extraordinary poster is I design it for advertising purpose. God really guide me much as I walk the days of my life. Even a job which people don't sees you or know you, I must remind myself that I must do it for the best to God because I am serving the supernatural and the living God. For now on, I must began to prayed much because I have a long time to prayed much because I am lazy. May God guide my life and my future. I hope this words will be a encouragement to those who read it. Remember that everyone in the church even any ministrys play an important rolw to God because we are serving God not man.

What A Great Festival Of Praise 2006....


Last Friday which is 12th May 2006, just as my first posted article. It is really event that change my life at all. Our Praise Group team which is the praise and worship team at my local church which is St Michael Church. We had learn many things from God. Our leader, Michael Chew had said many thing to us all. He said that we all must united to lead people to worship. He is a great leader to our team. An anointed leader that given by God to our team even he got some weakness that we also not like it much. That night, our team come into prayer to free ourselves to help us been clean and free to worship God. All of us before the event began the prayer. Many of us becoming prayer warriors that night. It's really a good experince to me. Although that festival not much people came which is about 70 over, all of us had learn an important thing in our life. We all had the same mind, same channel and all of us united to praise God. It's really a breakthrough at our team. We finally came out from the wilderness for many year. That night was a happy night. All of us came together to work it the event out. My best friend had encourage me much that night. It's is a great experince at all. But the road for the future is still long to reach to Jesus side. Now we know what is the true meaning of worship God and in the future, many things need to be done and we will ready for it. Have faith in Him and He will lead us all to the goal. The Lord is great indeed. Halleluyah...He is with us at all. God will guide us all and you in your life. Get known Him to be EXTRAORDINARY PERSON in the universe. Hehe.....the photo for the event maybe later can be publish because it still at my best friend's pc.

Self Doubt Kills A Friend

Self doubt really kills a friend. For what recently I had post articles at my blog. Many things I had done wrong. For what I had wrote at the recently article is what I had think it wrong. I had been selfish of myself and just think of the good deed of a friend could do. I had not cherish a gang of friends that cares me a lot even they had not show to me but in their heart they always care me. I had sorry to myself for what I had spoke hurting to my best friend untill he was tired of me and just always speechless to me. It was my weakness for all this years because of my secondary school days experiences. I was the most silent and negative person in my class. No one likes to talk to me because of this weakness. Yet that why I like my friend at church. yet I had been affected of my past and hurt my own caring friends at my church. How ashamed tfor what I had done. Sorry to my best friend that had realise me that I had did wrong. I was ashamed to talk to them for what I had done. I hardly can't sorry for myself. God help me with your loving heart, Lord. I had been negative and said cruel words to my own friends. How sinful I am ? I pray that God help me to courage and talk good words to my friends. Sorry is hard to earned. What I need to do is don't think much and think before I speak the words. Sorry to my dearest friends.........I was ashamed of myself........Sorry....Sorry....It may affected my life....

Bored And No Mood To Care......Sigh...

A few days ago, I seem bored at home even I had go to practise driving for my license. It quite panic when I drive my sifu's car. It's an experience to me because I never drive a car before. Bored and no mood had come to my life. It's seems is my work for the Festival Of Praise. I donno what happen to me now. Sigh.....bored and no mood....I was a silent and sensitive person although my friend not realise me well. Sometimes my words can hurt some people because what I had comment about their work. They seems rejected me as a member of the gang of friends. Silent person is make by my most silent pupil in the class. I donno how to talk to people emotionly because I lack of communication skill. That my weakness all the days of my life. Donno what happen to me. I seems wanted to leave Sandakan my hometown to find a new friend and on fire christians to get on. Sigh...because I was seems alone for a long time. My friends can talk their problem to me and I help them but when I was bored and no mood, they seems selfish for a little and not come to my site to talk and advice. They like more care about themselves and their popularity. Sigh....is that I am a silent people...I donno. They go to the fun fair at Mile 4 that the fun fair team came from United Kingdom, they go and had fun but the next day they said to me about the coolest thing at there. Yet they had not think of me and call me to join them. They seems call the others that are more fun and go with them. Sigh.....if they had think and care of me sometimes is a good sign to me. Sigh......have they ever think about me or I think about them....I donno. Sigh......what kind of friend that I had in my church. Materialisme and selfism had draw friendship to broken lose. Sigh......I must to pray to God that about this problem. I seems faithless already because of this problem. Even I am the multimedia leader to make better media in the Festival, my companion who is the movie editor just take more attention to the dance that will present out at Michaelmas than doing the making show at that concert on that night. It's make me that I had lack of faith in him because taking things that is very small in this event although I was easy and lying around at home because I waiting for the STPM news for taking student to which school they study. But I donno how to edit movie and greater media presentation, I just design and edit photo only and type slide for the concert. Seems make lack of faith in him. Sigh......last night my caring friend said to me at msn, she said leave it to God and pray for it and have faith in Him and have faith in my friend who do the movie thing. Sigh......I donno what to do already. I had persuate him and said to him, he just said oh. When I said that the song he edited for the dance got a bit problem at some place, he said to me that he made the song is not good lah. Sigh....how can I said to him. I really donno what to do. It just I pray to God about this problem. God will make the way. Pray and wait just for now............

It's hard to get a friend that care you much than himself but there is a most caring friend in all the universe. This friend is Jesus Christ. He will be faithfull in you all the time and He will not changed. Halleluyah that I got He.

It's Good Friday today....The Day Jesus Christ Died On The Cross

Have you seen the movie called The Passion Of The Christ? I have seen it and it is a sad movie but bring a new revial to us all mankind in the face of the earth. God is holy, man is sinner. Man can't had relationship with God because of their sins. Either God too. For we have sin agaist God, God so loves us untill He send His Son, Jesus Christ to us for a ultimate sacrifice for our sin. It painful to take the cup of suffering and drink it all for Him. All of this things happen because the unfailing and unconditional love of God. He did this because he want us to be with Him. What loving God for us all. Imagine if you are poor, dirty and sinful man to meet a king, what he will do. Surely he will throw you out because you had make his place to be dirty. It like God who is holy and powerful, we are sinner and what we have done is against God. Because He love us so much, Jesus Christ had become the middle man to meet God. Through Jesus only that you can contact with God. That why he died on the cross for our sins. He win over death and He had resurrect to Heaven. I had to dedicade a song from Jonathan Tse for this Good Friday:

It's a dark and distant road

To the cross of Calvary

It hurt to watch him walk

Down that road of suffering

Through the pain of carrying the cross

Shame so unbearing

He was mocked and his clothes were torn off

Did it all because of love

He did it all for me

He gave it all for me

No I can't believe it's true

That he chose to set me free

Took my death for eternal life

I can't comprehend His mind

Those nail that pierced through His hands

It's disturbing my mind

Can't imagine, I can't describe

Of this Saviour sacrifice

Why would you do such a thing?

For a sinful man such as me

Is it worth all the cause?

For the one that has never seen

*This is the song that Jonathan Tse written for his album, Purpose

Jesus bear the cross for all of our sins. It is the time for us to bear the cross for Him because we, christian had accepted Him as our Saviour. Tear comes out when you see the movie that the character of Jesus had been whiped and mocked when He was began to been died on the cross for all our sins. He has forgive us all even we are sinner because He love us. Only Him, we can have a relationship with God. This is the miracle of the Cross.

Yahoo...I Pass My Law Test....Yeah...

Yahoo......I had pass my law test today...wah so happy oh.....last night, I pray that God that He will grant me wisdom so that I will pass my law test...wah so happy oh......and last night, I read all the revision book that contain 500 question for the test because I must answer 42 question out of 50 question so I can pass the law test...wah...so many oh. When I was in the test center, i went into the test room which use computer to do the test. When I was checking my answer, the electricty off and all the computer offline already...so bored to see this happen. I went to the siting site to read the revison book again. After they had open the machine to supply electric, I went back to have the test again. After I had sure the question that I had answer, I click the end of the questiojn button to end the test and I pass and get 90% for my test which mean 45/50 question that correct. Wah so happy to me that I had pass my law test for the first stage of driving license, but must to go to the workshop briefing for futher test. Praise God that He give me wisdom to me to done well. I hope that I can get my driving lisence quickly.....yeah

Temper rise.....Emotion Rise....Angry Comes

Tonight as I always go to church for practise, things has happen when I was in the PA sound system to help them to make a best sound quality for them even I am not very skilled at it. I was been scolded and said that I am so stingy to make the sound so low until they cannot heard it. I already put the volume to the highest but seems that old and stupid system are not functioning. So my best freind who's the regular guy to do this job and make it well. I was so angry and my temper is up while I was cutting paper that contain words to put it into the display words at the system. Yet I was the sound man who is new to this thing been scolded that I was stingy for giving them higher sound in the stupid monitor. While my other frens said something to me, I shouted so loud untill he was been offended but lastly I and he said sorry to each and other. Even I was so angry and sick of the words that came from a guy's mouth, my best friend didn't said anything to me yet leave me speechless. Suddenly I cry to God, why they had to said words that hurt me. I was not an experience sound man yet they scolded me like a stupid guy. It was painfull and angry mix up together at my mind. When I was reminded that I should love my friend unconditionaly, even this thing happen because God love us unconditionaly but we must love my friend even my enemy unconditionaly. It hard to do that but I must do it with God. There are some people that think that been a sound man or LCD projectorist is not cool and unimportant and useless but someday they will realize how important they are. It remind me that if I lead a team, I shall cherish everyone heart and care for them than leave them to leave the team. It's hard to do it so. God has love me even I had sin agaist Him but yet He love me unconditionaly. It is a hard task to do it in my journey to eternal life. I believe that God with me even I was been tested......

An event that teach me a lot.......

Festival of Praise 2006 is coming soon at my church at Sandakan, Sabah, Malaysia. It is a concert that our Praise Group held to bring people to believe in God and to worship Him. Many things happen to me lately when I was leading the multimedia team to do advertising for this concert and the media in the event that will make people to believe in God. Bad comment and good comment come out from people to our this big event. It is very stressful to us for the bad word come to us. I also experience the attack from the devil to make me that I was mportant person in the event. It hard to carry the Cross of Jesus Christ at our life. I also had lost my handphone. Even during this time, my own friends had drifted me away and they speechless before me. It is a hard and tough to go through this feeling that you had been rejected. But God is always with me to go through this path even this things happen in my life. When i receive my sister letter, her advice truly touch me and relief my problem that happen in my life. There is season for everything, a season to laugh, season to cry, season to be disappointed and season to be give thanks. There are a lot of seasons in our live, in everyone’s live. It is a season of disappointed for me right now. But I know that God will always be with me even i was suffering of friendship problem. It hard to go through of it but God will guide me all the way. For the word of God had said:

The Lord is my shepherd; I have everything I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strenght. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. Even when I walk through the dark valley of death, I will not afraid for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. You prepare a feast for me in the presence of my enemies. You welcome me as a guest anointing my head with oil. My cup overflows with blessings. Surely your goodness and unfailing love will persue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the Lord forever.

Psalm 23

God will always be with me. I must love my friend with unconditional love for God even they had drifted me aways. It's a hard journey to move on.....