Bleeding heart is never easy to heal (memories 1)

It’s been 2 year since I still remember the old memories of my past. I still remember her when I come to see girls around me. It never been easy to said that I totally forgot her. I love her even we not been a relationship before. We just friends that care for each and other. I still know that she still not yet wake up from her own mistakes. It’s start from touch and caring to her when she had a problem with her boyfriend and I was been there to comfort her. I had make her smile and we got the chemistry happens. It’s been a period of time that we felt very close to each and other. We had enjoyed our time together to share her problem to me and I had comfort her in her heart that always long to seek love. What a great memories that time? I thought I had forgot it but I still remember that time.

An Impression of landscape...


























KLCC....an angle of sun set...
























does it gaves u the mood or not? What is it?
























Cloud of skies that got a sickles....























the public bank landscape...

SEDANG MEMBAIKI...



It's been a while that i had not blogging. I think my blog need to do some unmaintained for a while. One of my friend my blog is too emo. I think it's quite emo for this blog. EMO BLOG. I seems to emotional for a guy. Guy's emo world like it's very makes me like a pessimist. So lawrencent.blogspot are under maintenance

I had no ideas of topic...

It's been months that i had not blogging. This first new semester are really hard for me to adept it. Things are not the same anymore. New friends and new faces. I not so like changes. Although change is good for me too, but things that been get used for 3 months, everything need to do it again. Relationship need to built up again. Time need to be spend in assignment and studies which are my true priorities in my college life and friends too. When the time goes on, i see many real face of my friends in life. Who are caring friend and who are those can be throw away to dustbin. Things here are not as easy to adept at all. I will try my best.

Noob + Pride:

Noob + Pride, this is what I found myself in a game of volleyball. I recognize how weak I am in the sport and I still keep my pride high all the time. Yet i am not so good in something , yet no heart n i still pride. Pride, what a dangerous things in my life. I had sense that i am weak. I am pride even i am weak. I even pride in God's eyes. I am weak, I am strong, that what the Word had said, God gave us grace when we are weak. I need to improve my life and let myself down to humbleness. It is not easy to do. How comfort i am in my home? I realize it now. I sometimes regret the time i had wasted in my previous life. My mistakes. Self discipline is what i need to learn.

I hate it....

It’s been a long time I didn’t update my blog. I had not updated for 3 months since I come to the life here. Few days ago, my mood been full of cloud and negative thoughts keep wondering in my mind. I felt bored in here. I seems hard to get survive. Sometimes I neglected some friends in my college too. Sigh. Even I notice myself I got less accountable friend with me. Even my roommate, he not the one and he is even worse than me. A lonely heart dwells in him. Sigh. The football co-cum had held in college. I been try my best to make a ball kick but I can’t do it. I so disappointed to myself and I fail and fail so many times in football. I felt that I had no talent at all in football. I felt so shame of myself. What had happen to me? I had spoken f**k word every time and I still can’t get control of it. What happen to me? AHAH…..Is I still can’t get used? I felt alone. My old attitude rise back. I don’t want to fail my diploma and studies again. I been failed my STPM. Sigh. I write again the stupid title again like the past ago. Sigh…

My first sketch

It’s been the second week of my study life here. I went into the introduction to art and the lecturer gave us work which is sketching your hand phone. So I began to draw my phone. This is what I had done.

First edition





Second edition







There are some I edited by myself with Adobe Photoshop. It is just a simple editing only.

After I had done my sketching n gave it to the lecturer, she said that I done a quite good job and need to improve in toning and shadow skill oh. Really a bad sketch for me but at least I had done my best in it. So next time I can try my best to improve my sketching skill next time. I saw my friend artwork, he done a very nice sketch on his hand phone. He is a talented guy on art. I really amazed on him. This is my beginning of my learning life in here.

Life is Hard

Just 2 days, so many things need to learn and it's never been easy like in KL. I come here and start with zero. Things need to manage by myself. It's hard. At least, i got a friend and my sisters with me and my whole family to support me. So, i will not easily updated my blog because of the line here sucks and now my place no line. My friends those who are christian, pray for me. Thank You.

Leaving



I will be leaving to KL on 12 May to further my studies. For a long time in my very nice n peaceful hometown, it's time that i need to leave for my future n my maturity. I miss my home, my friends that I so care about,my colleagues, my Pardo, my parents and aunt and my church. I will miss all of them in here. So much of the precious memories in this town, Sandakan. I need remember each of them which lead me to what I am today. When I leave, things will never be same. Life in there also never be the same. I will said Good Bye to my comfort zone n go to a battlefield of life in there where i can learn n experience new things. Now, i just prepare before I leave my hometown. I will be back for CNY next year. God guide me in KL. So, everyone who still in this hometown take care of yourself. Bye.

Cherish While They Are Still Here

It’s been 2 months I had not updated my blog. I been lazy to updated it and busy with working in my own hometown. Cherish, a word that keep a great meaning in my life. I learn to cherish while my friends still here with me. Things changed, life change, people change. I remember the memories of all of my best pals in life come and help me in my life ups n downs. But now, things changed and some of them will not be close as we once are. I remember one of my friends who had lost contact with me. I still wonder how he is now. I still thinking what can I said to him since there are so much hurtful past in him? What words I can say to him? I do cherish my friend before he leaves us all to study. Miss him, my best pal. Cherish while they are still here, a words really good for those who had know its real meaning. Friends come and go, so cherish them while they are still here. If not, you will regret it one day. It’s never been easy to keep a friendship last long. The moment of the past had teach me to cherish while still can. I also think that it never easy to do so sometimes. Anyway, I hope all my friends are fine and healthy and been blessed by God all the days of their life. For my friends, I hope that we still keep in touch. God Bless all my loving friends.

Happy Chinese New Year 2008

As tradition, all members of the family will be back for Chinese New Year for a reunion dinner. Such traditional is a great concept of a family gathering as the draw the family together and strengthens the bonds between each others. Sincerely to said, I not fully like some of the traditional of my own race such as lion dance (bored at it), but I do respect on it. One of the meaningful traditions is reunion dinner. I like reunion dinner and I stated as an important event of my life. I great to see all my family member to be happy and chit chat. So happy to see the faces of smile and the sound of jokes come from them. All my sisters had back home and I do enjoy my fellowship with them all and our hang out together. I do miss them much as they are the one who loved me so much since I was small. Thank God for 2 sisters that so cared about me even what I had changed too. Just like an Malay idiom “air dicincang tidak akan diputus”, no matter what happen, we are still family. Thank You, God, for blessed all the time and we endure the time together. My sister had said to me, I’m more matured than I used to be. I quite glad for me that she saw me happy and not as I was, who once sad for no reason. It’s a new year; life has to be changed for the better. God guide me through out my maturity. I do meet my friends who had back from all places from where they studies. They all back for the CNY. I’m glad to see them in a smiling face. Many people had changed and more matured. Time goes by so fast. I also see myself had changed too. One thing is important although so much changed in time which is appreciate people surround you; who cared and love you. One more thing which is the most vital of all, the intimate relationship with God. Thank you, God. Happy Chinese New Year to all. Have a nice pai nian yah. God Bless.