EXIT-Horror Movie Poster

This is horror movie poster designed by me: Any comments?

It Just Need A Smile...

It is just a picture i edited. Gave some meaning of the art been make. 

Emotions barriers

As a guy, we tend to not being so emotional than the girls. Yet I was not one of them. I sometimes always get my emotions get hold on me. It’s been bondage in me. It’s seems it start when I had the event of my roommate and I seldom had the hope to trust people in my side. I lost that faith yet slowly I tend to increase my weakness. Things are not the same anymore. I really not like to be an emotional person who can’t control his emotion all the time. I lack of conversation, understanding and etc yet I was the one who not gave the first move to let them know. I afraid was hurt again. Just as a past I done in my recent college life, relationships get worst and I been affected of it. I have lack of trust on people. Where are you my old self that care for people around you? Changes for me it is hard to get on it. It’s takes times. Lord, help me.

Today…..

Today, I went to Pavilion, Sungai Wang and Times Square by myself. It’s my walk for getting relaxes from the emotions that I having this few days ago. I was going to find my friend’s law book in the bookstores available in the area. I went there by bus and it come to a traffic jam when I arrive Pavilion. OMG, why so jam on Sunday? Sunday is really a free time for people to hang out. No wonder I see why Setapak so silent on Sunday. All of them go to hang out and have fun at other places. If not, all must be sleeping like pigs at home. I truly enjoy my walk in the Pavilion for my first time. It’s really amazed me. I been walking many shopping places in KL yet Pavilion amazed me the most. It might be a good hangout for couples. I stop by at times bookstores. Wow, it was the best bookstores because I like the interior design there. Black & orange. It is really a high class places even the café in it makes me a reader a place to enjoy your book and drink a fresh brewed coffee. I really can stay longer at a bookstore for a long time just to view some comic books. I end up that I can’t the book. So I kept walking around Pavilion. I really regret that I should bring my camera with me and capture those nice architecture designs in the buildings. For those who had not been there, you guys should have a visit, if got $$$ even better…. ~v~… I had not walked the entire place yet I very satisfy. Afterward, I went to Lot 10 in order to get to Sungai Wang. Lot 10 is quite okay place anyway. They have quite good style of design and bring the metallic city feels to me. Not so very. I just pass by. When I arrived sungai wang, my mind blow up a word “WOW”. There is so many people inside the mall, I really don’t like mall that been jammed with many people. I felt like sandwiches. I try to find a bookstore yet I end up without saw one there. Where is the famous Popular and MPH? I was so frustrated of a crowded mall, I went to Times Square. I went to the border and end up again, I still can’t found that book again. My friend book is really hard to found. After all day searching for a law book, I end up nothing yet I enjoy my time alone. The very first time I went alone to famous malls alone. I not like been alone when hang out but when sometimes, I need to survey myself. I found my ambitions and purpose while I going to walk out. I think it’s better than facing the laptop screen all days. That is my Today.

Bleeding heart is never easy to heal (memories 1)

It’s been 2 year since I still remember the old memories of my past. I still remember her when I come to see girls around me. It never been easy to said that I totally forgot her. I love her even we not been a relationship before. We just friends that care for each and other. I still know that she still not yet wake up from her own mistakes. It’s start from touch and caring to her when she had a problem with her boyfriend and I was been there to comfort her. I had make her smile and we got the chemistry happens. It’s been a period of time that we felt very close to each and other. We had enjoyed our time together to share her problem to me and I had comfort her in her heart that always long to seek love. What a great memories that time? I thought I had forgot it but I still remember that time.

An Impression of landscape...


























KLCC....an angle of sun set...
























does it gaves u the mood or not? What is it?
























Cloud of skies that got a sickles....























the public bank landscape...

SEDANG MEMBAIKI...



It's been a while that i had not blogging. I think my blog need to do some unmaintained for a while. One of my friend my blog is too emo. I think it's quite emo for this blog. EMO BLOG. I seems to emotional for a guy. Guy's emo world like it's very makes me like a pessimist. So lawrencent.blogspot are under maintenance

I had no ideas of topic...

It's been months that i had not blogging. This first new semester are really hard for me to adept it. Things are not the same anymore. New friends and new faces. I not so like changes. Although change is good for me too, but things that been get used for 3 months, everything need to do it again. Relationship need to built up again. Time need to be spend in assignment and studies which are my true priorities in my college life and friends too. When the time goes on, i see many real face of my friends in life. Who are caring friend and who are those can be throw away to dustbin. Things here are not as easy to adept at all. I will try my best.

Noob + Pride:

Noob + Pride, this is what I found myself in a game of volleyball. I recognize how weak I am in the sport and I still keep my pride high all the time. Yet i am not so good in something , yet no heart n i still pride. Pride, what a dangerous things in my life. I had sense that i am weak. I am pride even i am weak. I even pride in God's eyes. I am weak, I am strong, that what the Word had said, God gave us grace when we are weak. I need to improve my life and let myself down to humbleness. It is not easy to do. How comfort i am in my home? I realize it now. I sometimes regret the time i had wasted in my previous life. My mistakes. Self discipline is what i need to learn.

I hate it....

It’s been a long time I didn’t update my blog. I had not updated for 3 months since I come to the life here. Few days ago, my mood been full of cloud and negative thoughts keep wondering in my mind. I felt bored in here. I seems hard to get survive. Sometimes I neglected some friends in my college too. Sigh. Even I notice myself I got less accountable friend with me. Even my roommate, he not the one and he is even worse than me. A lonely heart dwells in him. Sigh. The football co-cum had held in college. I been try my best to make a ball kick but I can’t do it. I so disappointed to myself and I fail and fail so many times in football. I felt that I had no talent at all in football. I felt so shame of myself. What had happen to me? I had spoken f**k word every time and I still can’t get control of it. What happen to me? AHAH…..Is I still can’t get used? I felt alone. My old attitude rise back. I don’t want to fail my diploma and studies again. I been failed my STPM. Sigh. I write again the stupid title again like the past ago. Sigh…

My first sketch

It’s been the second week of my study life here. I went into the introduction to art and the lecturer gave us work which is sketching your hand phone. So I began to draw my phone. This is what I had done.

First edition





Second edition







There are some I edited by myself with Adobe Photoshop. It is just a simple editing only.

After I had done my sketching n gave it to the lecturer, she said that I done a quite good job and need to improve in toning and shadow skill oh. Really a bad sketch for me but at least I had done my best in it. So next time I can try my best to improve my sketching skill next time. I saw my friend artwork, he done a very nice sketch on his hand phone. He is a talented guy on art. I really amazed on him. This is my beginning of my learning life in here.

Life is Hard

Just 2 days, so many things need to learn and it's never been easy like in KL. I come here and start with zero. Things need to manage by myself. It's hard. At least, i got a friend and my sisters with me and my whole family to support me. So, i will not easily updated my blog because of the line here sucks and now my place no line. My friends those who are christian, pray for me. Thank You.

Leaving



I will be leaving to KL on 12 May to further my studies. For a long time in my very nice n peaceful hometown, it's time that i need to leave for my future n my maturity. I miss my home, my friends that I so care about,my colleagues, my Pardo, my parents and aunt and my church. I will miss all of them in here. So much of the precious memories in this town, Sandakan. I need remember each of them which lead me to what I am today. When I leave, things will never be same. Life in there also never be the same. I will said Good Bye to my comfort zone n go to a battlefield of life in there where i can learn n experience new things. Now, i just prepare before I leave my hometown. I will be back for CNY next year. God guide me in KL. So, everyone who still in this hometown take care of yourself. Bye.

Cherish While They Are Still Here

It’s been 2 months I had not updated my blog. I been lazy to updated it and busy with working in my own hometown. Cherish, a word that keep a great meaning in my life. I learn to cherish while my friends still here with me. Things changed, life change, people change. I remember the memories of all of my best pals in life come and help me in my life ups n downs. But now, things changed and some of them will not be close as we once are. I remember one of my friends who had lost contact with me. I still wonder how he is now. I still thinking what can I said to him since there are so much hurtful past in him? What words I can say to him? I do cherish my friend before he leaves us all to study. Miss him, my best pal. Cherish while they are still here, a words really good for those who had know its real meaning. Friends come and go, so cherish them while they are still here. If not, you will regret it one day. It’s never been easy to keep a friendship last long. The moment of the past had teach me to cherish while still can. I also think that it never easy to do so sometimes. Anyway, I hope all my friends are fine and healthy and been blessed by God all the days of their life. For my friends, I hope that we still keep in touch. God Bless all my loving friends.

Happy Chinese New Year 2008

As tradition, all members of the family will be back for Chinese New Year for a reunion dinner. Such traditional is a great concept of a family gathering as the draw the family together and strengthens the bonds between each others. Sincerely to said, I not fully like some of the traditional of my own race such as lion dance (bored at it), but I do respect on it. One of the meaningful traditions is reunion dinner. I like reunion dinner and I stated as an important event of my life. I great to see all my family member to be happy and chit chat. So happy to see the faces of smile and the sound of jokes come from them. All my sisters had back home and I do enjoy my fellowship with them all and our hang out together. I do miss them much as they are the one who loved me so much since I was small. Thank God for 2 sisters that so cared about me even what I had changed too. Just like an Malay idiom “air dicincang tidak akan diputus”, no matter what happen, we are still family. Thank You, God, for blessed all the time and we endure the time together. My sister had said to me, I’m more matured than I used to be. I quite glad for me that she saw me happy and not as I was, who once sad for no reason. It’s a new year; life has to be changed for the better. God guide me through out my maturity. I do meet my friends who had back from all places from where they studies. They all back for the CNY. I’m glad to see them in a smiling face. Many people had changed and more matured. Time goes by so fast. I also see myself had changed too. One thing is important although so much changed in time which is appreciate people surround you; who cared and love you. One more thing which is the most vital of all, the intimate relationship with God. Thank you, God. Happy Chinese New Year to all. Have a nice pai nian yah. God Bless.

It's Christmas Eve


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Tonight, my beautiful and old church will having a dinner and carol events. I hope i can enjoy the time in it. It's christmas eve. Christmas is all about our Saviour, Jesus Christ came to this world to redeem us all in 2 thousand years ago. God sent Him to us to save us all from the bondage of sin. How great is He who had sent His only son top redeem us all. Christmas is not all about santa, shopping and giving. It's a celebration that God had came to save us all. The hope He has given throughout this season had make us free. That's what all christmas about. In this modern world, Tv and media always impact and influence the mind of people to believe santa and etc but Jesus. Christmas, a message to all the world that they can be saved by believing Him as their personal Saviour and gave your life to Him. It's a free gift to heaven. God Bless U all. MERRY CHRISTMAS.

A Glimpse Of Memories

Just today onward, it’s the days I will face the real world. A glimpse of memories of 2 years will store in my mind. As today is the last days at school, my form 6 school, sung siew secondary school, there is quite much I miss those moments. Memories of the past plus the present, so much I had learned from these years. Learning to communicate, learn to see people, and etc. I got some friends I know since the last 2 years in my school. Anyway, it’s just a memory that will keep in me. When time goes by, many things will change, people will change, all change but God will not changed. A step to the society world after my own STPM exam and planning for my own future. A glimpse of memories as dwell in my mind as the days goes by. May the pasts’ mistakes become teaching in the future. For not dwell anymore in the past and learn to forget it. Sweet and bitter memories. For now, I just want to get well in my STPM exam. God help me this time. God bless u all that is in SPM and STPM exams. God Bless.

Just Get On

After receive effective comments from someone I don’t know, I just need go on in my life and take changes inside of me. It’s been right; no one can save me beside myself. No more sad and negative character. Now just left 43 days to STPM, do what I can and be in the Lord’s guide always. It’s just me to take the change of myself and I need to be mature. No more childish thoughts. Sorry for those who offended in the previous achieve. Just get it on and continue to get a blessed life with God. No more self pity, control my flesh and get a good results and bear consequences. That’s all. Thanks for the comments.

True friend are hard to find

Friends. Hard to know what the really meaning of “friend”, especially true friend. It is very hard to find true friends. There is some friend close with u just for taking some advantages from me. Some those lie and cheat me for a certain purpose to not reveal their secret darkness and sins. Some are not truthful. I got one among the friends that I know whom just close to me for certain events and matters. I hate such things happen to me. What have I chosen all the time? Have I done something wrong? So much of kindness draw unto them, they just blind and not repay what I have done to them. Am I taking something that I had given? I don’t know. Some got see what I had done but there is some got see what i had done on them but still not close to me. Is that I not sacrifice much in them. Is that I’m not take some time to know what happen to them? What happen? Time changed, people changed. People changed, friendship changed. So much in life that I need to learn. Is that sometimes I not spend much time in them? What about me? Do they spend their time in me? Do they know what really happen to me? Thank God that I still have my 3 best pals and my own sisters and family. Maybe I should be grateful for what I have? But sometimes, when I back to school or church, I didn’t sense the presence of closeness friendship, some are on their own business, some with others, some had their work to do. For works, I don’t mind much but for those who always mind their own business, I not like it. Hey, what I had done in your life is that useless and hopeless at all? Y u just minds your own business than go to care me? Is that I done something wrong in their life? I really don’t know at all. Something I done wrong, they didn’t tell. Only those who are really close with me, especially my best pals, they told me. Thank God for He had given me such close friends who really help me. Sigh…I really don’t understand sometimes, y such things happen in my surrounding? I thought it come to an end since I left secondary school. Sigh. At least, I still got some who really cares for me. Be grateful always. One things at all, God never changed. He is the real True and Best friend at all times.

Old Memories

The pictures is like a reflection of the old memories. Old memories come to my mind when I see the old pictures of the past. Many thoughts come to my mind. During those times, we all were happy. I did all that I didn’t think of what I had done it before. Happy, sadness, crazy and foolish moments of the past. Things change fast. Time tick fast too. Those old memories that make me joy and sorrow. The happiness times with my best gang, the past and sad tragedy, mission trip moments, helping to make events such as concerts and camps moments, and etc. Although it was happy and sorrow those precious moments but things change now. Last night, I called my best friend in KK, things and people change when u gets older. He himself also was changed. I saw so many of my best pals in the gang of friends had change. Time past, people change, things change, surrounding change and me also change. People change now. My once best pal become common pal, their mind set change and I began not to suite their kind of thinking. Many problems when I grow up. Relationship problems, friendship problems, study problems, and many more. Things make me to grow up and be mature. My surrounding friends also change due to their surrounding. Change in their mind set, perspectives in life and people and etc. The closeness I had in them had change since the friendship gone into problem. Besides that, I might cause some problem by myself but sometimes I do no what I have done. Trust…sigh. People will changed, but God never change at all. That’s what important. Happy moments were the past. Sorrow moments were the past too. Past is past, gone is gone, lost is lost, just accept the situation although things goes wrong and try to make it well back. If can’t, just let it to God. A friend of mine, a best friend too will go to KL to study; yet all of my friends will miss him. He will be left, so I just accept it. I might be sad for I missed so much in our friendship but things will change. Just go my life. I will try to keep myself to keep in touch with them all. I don’t want a situation when 10 years later we meet back will be nothing to said. I hope God still sustain my friendship with all my friends who are close. Things change, people change but God never changes. When people change, just accept it. When u done a wrong step, just don’t regret it and think to get it done till u have to let it to God. Think well before I take a step. Make decision well. Practice more to improve myself. Things gone, it had gone so just stand up and get going. Memories just become a moment to reflect what u had wrong and what u have done in persons’ life. Old Memories are good to reflect back in my mind but not dwell in it. Past had past, so get going towards. That’s all. God Bless all my friends and you all.