I hate it....

It’s been a long time I didn’t update my blog. I had not updated for 3 months since I come to the life here. Few days ago, my mood been full of cloud and negative thoughts keep wondering in my mind. I felt bored in here. I seems hard to get survive. Sometimes I neglected some friends in my college too. Sigh. Even I notice myself I got less accountable friend with me. Even my roommate, he not the one and he is even worse than me. A lonely heart dwells in him. Sigh. The football co-cum had held in college. I been try my best to make a ball kick but I can’t do it. I so disappointed to myself and I fail and fail so many times in football. I felt that I had no talent at all in football. I felt so shame of myself. What had happen to me? I had spoken f**k word every time and I still can’t get control of it. What happen to me? AHAH…..Is I still can’t get used? I felt alone. My old attitude rise back. I don’t want to fail my diploma and studies again. I been failed my STPM. Sigh. I write again the stupid title again like the past ago. Sigh…