Hang Outs



Well, today is one of our heng dai, Dik's birthday, remake of the birthday in lecture hall again...haha...
















tat the lecture hall celebrations....
















kakis gathering with the B boy bah....













dikacau kau kau ni panggil....XD















last stance....dunno why use woodpecker???

*photo by Mei Shan....

Well, today i get some hang out with my kakis' in my college life. Times pass by so fast. I with them already a year more. I need to appreciate my friends while there is time before we graduated. For me in these studies of my diploma, 2 years is too fast and next years, i need to plan for my own future and career life. Getting older now sometimes i don't like it but i need to face it. Things so busy these few days and i get sleepless night sometimes due to assignment and some weird nightmare and dreams. It's been the third week and i felt it hard to reconnect something that had broken in the relationship. It's like a gap of wall between us when we meet together. I regret i do make mistakes when things not so stable, i put the wrong responsible and it end up bad in the friendship too because i been too control and caring. It's a hard lesson to me now to grow up and I dun wan get failed again in my own diploma studies due to some hard feelings in the past had cause me give up in my STPM. I failed once, i dun want to failed twice again. It's a season to me now. I need to go through it with God. Sometimes i miss her yet things still broken. What's the point to love instead the other side didn't love? It's just stupid to make myself miserable. I learn not to self pity all the time although when things calm down, sometimes i was very miss her and concern about her. I need space now to heal my own heart for what had been happen. I think i will not so fast to get a girlfriend because i still not mature enough to take care of a person and i need to learn to take care of myself first. Sometimes what i spoken is hard to be done yet it need to be done. Action speaks louder than words. It need times and practice to make it successful. I still learning. Sometimes, i hope she forgive me what i had done and gave me a chance, yet i need space to get rib of these hard feelings. Haiz. Keep devotions now. I pray she will be healthy always. God Bless.