Birthday.....

Everyone celebrate birthdays. Birthdays remind my mothers, she always remind me of my birthday and celebrate together with all my family. I was very glad that at least my family reminds me of my birthdays all the time and the moments i enjoy with my family. I should spend more time with the relationships with all my family. Well, i not very like my birthday sometimes because i always see i celebrate people's birthday with surprises and good food or present been given to them. Yet all the year of my life, it's just a day like normal days except wishes from peoples whom i know. At least, wishes are a good things that they wish for me. All thanks to my church friends and some school friends and facebook too wishes those Happy Birthday message to me. I just sometimes i feel rejected because i had immune to these days. Sometimes i do said, if u don't want to celebrate or forgotten, just let it be. All my life, good moments of birthdays are from family more than friends. I am very jealous of my friends that why they get some good surprises or others from their friends and I am a part of the celebration yet when comes to me, all had busy with their own stuffs. That makes me think for this night thought i just got some wishes and ice cream. Man do crave for more. Sometimes, people do wishes you in facebook, i didn't felt the reality of the message than the message been speaks out from words through face to face which gave me a smile at my face. A simple cake celebrations with photos captured would be a happy celebration with songs sing together will cheer me up for the day. Haiz.....i not meant to be LC in some of my friends birthdays just i just had some this jealousy had cause some coolness of my attitude when those celebration happens. Sometimes i don't celebrate their birthday with the same reason my friend do the same things. Well, 21 birthday celebrations will be special is a bullshit to me because it's doesn't happen at that day. It's just a bullshit than others whom are specials. Well, in this post, i was want to express out my feelings of the day and feel hurts that i had store for a long time. Sometimes I thought what I had wrong. What I do in treating people? What i had done wrong in communication? I really dunno. Anyway, it's good that people gave some nice wishes to me and i thanks them all. These messages are not meant to hurt but it is I want to express what I want to said. God Bless U all.