On Mission.....

Starting by tommorow, i will be going a short term mission trip to nangod, sugut and paitan (interior of Sabah) for 3 days and 2 night. Going to spread the gospel of God to the lost souls. May God protects me. I prayed that He will guide all of the mission team all the days of our trip.

Speechless......

I had been bored and speechless yesterday. Do no what had happen to me? Sigh..donno wat to say. That why i put the title"speechless". 2 more days , i will go to mission to Sugut in the interior of Sabah. Hope i can do well. Sigh....

Thank you God ('',)

Thank You God.

For You had guide till this days.

Though there was been many seasons.

Seasons of joy and sorrow.

Though it is hard to endure

but worth to do it.

For it bring to the eternal life,

a close relationship to You, Lord.

God, i thank you that given me friends

that guide me, bear my burden,

share my emotions, listen to me and share joy.

Thanks that You had given me, 2 loving sister,

though they were busy in their life,

still take some times to help me,

loving me and cares for me.

Lord, i thank You for them.

Till now You had guide me.

To path of a close relationship with You.

Thank You, God.

Psalm 27


The Lord is my light and my salvation
so why should I afraid?
The Lord protects me from danger
so why should I tremble?
When evil people come to destroy me,
when my enemies and foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
Though a mighty army surrounds me,
my heart will know no fear.
Even if they attack me, I remain confident.
The one thing I ask of the Lord
the things I seek most
is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
delighting in the Lord's perfections
and meditating in his Temple.
For he will conceal me there when troubles come;

he will hide me in his sanctuary.

He will place me out of reach on a high rock.

Then I will hold my head high,

above my enemies who surround me.

At his Tabernacle I will offer sacrifices

with shouts of joy,

singing and praising the Lord with music.

Listen to my pleading, O Lord.

Be merciful and answer me!

My heart has heard you say,

"Come and talk with me."

And my heart responds, "Lord, I am coming."

Do not hide yourself from me.

Do not reject your servant in anger.

You have always been my helper.

Don;t leave me now; don't abandon me,

O God of my salvation!

Even if my father and mother abandon me,

the Lord will hold me close.

Teach me how to live, O Lord.

Lead me along the path of honesty,

for my enemies are waiting for me to fall.

Do not let me fall into my hands.

for they accuse me of things I've never done

and breathe out violence against me.

Yet I am confident that I will see the Lord's goodness

while I am here in the land of the living.

Wait patiently for the Lord.

Be brave and courageous.

Yes, wit patiently for the Lord.

(Scripture from New Living Translation Bible)

Failed…




I had failed. I failed my exam. I get the second lowest in my class. I was wondering what had happen to me. I still don’t know where I want to study in my future. I seem hopeless and sad. Many things had happened to my life. Misunderstanding relationship, friends will or might go to leave my hometown, church life, talking skill, fake mask, and others. What happen to me? I wasted so much time in this year. Till now I don’t know what I want to do in my future. It’s waste me a year. Sigh…sigh…seems hopeless to me. I have faith in God that He will lead me but I myself having problems. I want this and I want that. Sigh…. I also wasted my parent’s money to play at cyber cafes. Wasted so much money. Why did I go there to play? I hate to bore. I want to get off from boredom. In this age, many things changed. People surrounding had changed. Some were good and some were bad. Thank God for those who had changed to good. I now was self-pity. I have sin against God. I keep doing things that I should not do even I had prayed to God. Sigh. The person or character that I hate the most is hypocrite. Even I myself almost like them. Sigh. Sigh. I’m confused. I also want a girl friend in this time. Sigh. So I can know girls more and more. I’m 18 now and still never dated before. I know God will give the best but I’m not patient and causing myself hurt during the misunderstanding relationship recently. During the moment, I was hurt and rejected. What I had lacked off? Is that I’m not handsome enough or good enough? A guy who loves God and a heart to serve God, she can’t see. Sigh. I let it. Just continue the friendship. I’m too selfish during that time. I felt I was wasted so much time on it till my study had been neglected. Not the moment too, I’m too caring for my “kei mui” too, I was cared her till she was sensitive too me. What should I do? Serve man is never been easy. That’s why my sis told me that I should serve God because it’s eternal. I still confused of myself and I felt I was a failure. Sigh. Lord what should I do? Guide me, Jesus. For you are my strength and comforter. Jesus guides me till the eternity. Sigh…

Friends.....

Friends. It really matters to me for my life. They shared with me. My sorrow, sadness, serving, happiness, and etc. The friends that helps me is my friends in church. They impact my life to serve God. I thanls God that He has given friends that helps me and guide me. Hehe....in the upside pic, the first guy from left is my best friend, Gabriel then Rev Clarence Fu, our new rector of St Michael Church, then Fei Ping, a friend and leader to me in my youth fellowship and in worship team and the last guy is me who wear bodyglove t-shirt. I not so know my rector because i quite scare him. Donno why. I know him is a vision man and godly man. This picture is taken from the BM JAM+2 concert a month ago. Friend in my church had help me much in my life. We work together and go around together. It was a great moment in my life in church. Yet sometimes i felt alone because i don't have a girl friend but God has given me friends that cares me by my side. A month ago, i got some problems in my life. A misunderstanding relationship with a close girl friend of mine. She is too close to me till I was misunderstood of her and I began have feeling on her. I said my feeling to her that i got some feeling to her, she just said that i just been a good friend to her. Nothing more than that. I had been make 3 times confirmation on it and yet she said the same. It's makes me hurts because of this misunderstanding but teaches me to patiently wait from God that He will provide a best girl friend to me. I am still single and never been date before. Just sometimes, when I'm 18 years old, these kind of feeling that bring me to find a gal for me. But i still not yet mature and responsible, so I wait and prayed to God about it.

Lazy to talk more on it. Just makes me think too much on it then think negative on it. Today, i was lazy to go to school. Yesterday, i was too tired in the church. I slept late then in my youth cell time, they play games in the hill in Taman Tshun Ngen. The places were hard to trek. I was been already too tired because lackness of rest yet need to trek the hill ah. It's makes me too tired. Then I need to back to church to practise carolling and interchurch worship practise, makes me more tired. I was too busy to run there around in the church to take cables and sit back to the sits of choirs. I was one of the choirs in the interchurch project. Yet that moment I need to help my friend, Wai yee to help in sound management. Makes me more tired and no mood to talk. Yet i need some words of encouragement at my side, no one said it to me. Sigh but some of them still can ask me how r u?

Friends really matters to me. For me, friends that put me in their heart matters to me. I thank for friends that cares me a lot in my youth life. I really miss my brother in Christ, Ah Chuen in KK. He is the guy that guides me much in my church life. Gabriel and Joash too. This 3 guys had help me much in my life. They were my 3 best friends in my life. Girls ah. Less because I still donno how to talk with girls yet. But I will try my best to cherish my friendship with my girl friends. I admit that I am quite a silent person. Maybe is that reason that i seldom talk much with girls la. Now I was still learning to get know with girls. I will know that God will guide me in my life. I wish that I will be in the youth camp earlier so I can get know more girls. Hehe. I need to cherish my friends that guide me much. Thank you God for you given me friends.