Next Batch of Faith Music

I was graduated from the second sem of vocal class in FCC. It was a big difference of me in my singing method than the previous me in last worship team auditions. I gain stamina. Although that night, I didn't win but i saw something on that night. Success leads through obedience to God, somehow i experience it's true. The path was hard yet hope is in Him. In this 3 month of job i had even though it's very boring at times, i got better starting salary for diploma graduate even i not had an diploma yet. It's a blessing from him. Breakthrough is what my sister said to me. Hmmm.....now i stuck with some website design cause me a big headache in my head. I been thinking for weeks and it still not accepted. That why ppl always whom not artist or designer will not understand what we been through in the progress of thinking of an creative design. The process takes time but with good art director to lead would be nice to me. Even it crush my artwork, i accept it rather a bunch of garbage critics all around. Some even not an encouragement or talking. That's even worst. Keep on on designing and designing this webby:

this website makes my head spin and spin around just to revent a company website design. So much of things not planned well for a website. I understand, they not web designer yet i not experience in it too....wat the hell, makes me even late to gave the job up. Keep working in a bored place or sometimes a 38 place if the 38 ppl here....haha

Does?

Does it a must in it? Insurances, i dun have much faith on these policy. Sometimes, when people ask about kill me (joking), i just said let it be. Why i should said so. I said because life sometimes just here n there. Either you live or die, but i do believe i die or live with hope. Today, it was a bored day and it's near holiday. Tomorrow I will be going to help si Zermi's crew in lighting. I hope i can learn something. Why hopes so dim foe such a cloudy day? I seems tired today with dim mood. Sometimes people do not understand what is the meaning of teach than to scold so directly till they know. F U. You just the same hurt people like us. Self vs Give. Haiz....just sleep today...anyway, i been months no updated this blog....

Don't Be A Problem Maker Next Time And Stay Alive....

Something to remember in future as designer...

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Times had goes by.

Times had goes by so fast now. Things if not planned well, time just sometimes wasted in young life. Things changes. I'm change. My mindset had changes. Changes is good when it come with good outcomes. Well, things not the same when times goes by. Sometimes i felt grateful even when that very things happen in my life. It serve with a purpose that makes me more better person than cling on emotions and problem soon might will happen and cause disruptions. Well sometimes when i think back those times, it is a moments yet it does affect me now but it haunted me my own very motive that when i meet friends. Does i had a bad motive behind? Will i be the one whom do the same mistakes that cause me such troubles in the past? The last one is also a friend whom i just know not so long and i get attracted to her. Well, does motive really cause the effect or things just to early. It does affected my ways to know new friends. I hope i didn't come out with bad motive in these things. I don't want create or make an early relationship due to what happens to me in the past but does these matters. Hmmm. Friendships in early is better because early cause end the relationships due to many reasons n emotions. I still learning by lesson i get by the past. Well, i soon need to start back devotions and re purpose my life. I'm growing up and soon life need to be go on as i'm now become adult. Leaning adult.

Friends and Money.

Money always a sensitive issue to anyone. Well, today i just spoke to a friend about money n friends things. Sometimes i just wonder, now i having financial problem till i dun want to spend much in certain areas, does that affect the friend's relationships. Isn't we communicate and etc makes better? Sometimes i dun like to talk about my financial usage because i feel i have my own right to use it yet in some point of view that i didn't go to find them or having a party with some of my own college friend. Does that affect the relationships? What really matter in relationship anyway? Some certain point we do sacrifice something for it yet sometimes does it give back. I still doubt about this matter yet i just be flexible. My words hard to be trust now. Gaining trust now i need to learn. Does money really matters? What comes to friendships? I not yet work and have my own financial. I just wonder. I seldom talk to friends. I not a person whom always communicate. That why i felt alone somehow in certain times. Am i lack of communicate or something else. Hmmm.