When Things cross through my mind.

It’s was quite an enjoyable night. Yet I still envy of people of friends that crazy around during their birthday. I think of my old past and those crazy memories of been open and crazy around with them yet I not so appreciate them. Spoil what should not be spoil, done things that make u regret. I was so mess up because of this things impacted what I am today. Been drunk is fun and enjoy but what I want to be drunk is to get rid of my problems and emotions that always makes me so bad. What I need so much of self pride yet I not that talented to do so. Negativity what I always hate in my life. It’s almost destroying me and confidence. What I am now because what I experience what in the past. I dare because I once coward. I dun care much people’s gossip of me because it’s so bored n angry to care for it. I get pride because I thought myself better than them. Humility and meekness I began to loss. Where am I now? What cause me so hard to get back myself? I lack of so much. I just pride but I not humble. Pride is stumbling me now. I need to seek back humbleness again.