Emotions barriers

As a guy, we tend to not being so emotional than the girls. Yet I was not one of them. I sometimes always get my emotions get hold on me. It’s been bondage in me. It’s seems it start when I had the event of my roommate and I seldom had the hope to trust people in my side. I lost that faith yet slowly I tend to increase my weakness. Things are not the same anymore. I really not like to be an emotional person who can’t control his emotion all the time. I lack of conversation, understanding and etc yet I was the one who not gave the first move to let them know. I afraid was hurt again. Just as a past I done in my recent college life, relationships get worst and I been affected of it. I have lack of trust on people. Where are you my old self that care for people around you? Changes for me it is hard to get on it. It’s takes times. Lord, help me.