Appreciate what u got….

Appreciate what u got. That’s what I learn from my sister blog. Friends are there to you to be care of them. To be a brother in Christ among them. Time was there for me to study. A foolish acts of me that I not appreciate at the most of them. Things go bad because what moves I make. I realized there still friends really care me, God care me and I am not alone at all. My friends were far from me, but still understand me. My life are been help by them that God so blessed to gave me them. God actually help me much in life through the vessel of blessing of my friends in other places. I just blind from the lies of the devil and make me do foolish act that might hurt them. Lord guides me. I now need to appreciate what I have now. Once I left my hometown, life needs to restart again. Thank You, God for so much you had help me even I been hurt u before. Let me the man after Your own heart, Lord. For what u had been said to me last year. Guide me to be a caring and humble person that can reflect the glories of Your name. In Jesus name, I prayed. Amen.

{REWRAP}

It’s been 4 months that I not been blog. It’s been a long time that my old and caring friend, Joash had gone to Tawau. I miss my friend so much. Words that he had help me much all this time. Words that he encouraged me to be brave in communication, becoming a positive person and caring person. Every advice still got some memories in me. I had been told that I was once a guy who was rewrap into a present paper that warp in a box. I stuck there for a long time that I struggle to came out. I had out from the box and the present paper, to see what beyond me, my own thinking. Think out of the box that what he mostly mention. My story begins from my secondary school hood; I was once a negative and angry person. Life sucks during that moment. Been alone is not fun at all. Since I enter form 6, I realized that I just think negatively all the time. Been alone and unhappy person, I was less been approach by friends around me. They hard to realized what am I thinking about. Those words really change my life; I began to post an archive from my blog since then. His words had changed me much. Not him also, my other caring friend, Augustine also help me much in my life too. Since after the tragedy, I rewrap back. I foolishly take steps to ~rewrap~ my own self again. For almost a year or half year, I had been negative again. I thought I was hurt deeply but it’s just a misunderstanding. Last night and 2 days ago, I realized so many things from some friends, the tragedy had been healed and solve is due to everyone weakness, the 2 faces friends that I realized in my life, and selfishness dwell in my group of friends. What happen actually? I so realized so many things that it’s hurt me much and makes me confused. I realized that it’s better to give than receive. That is what I done last year. I stop doing so because misunderstanding and hurts that dwell in me all the time. Blind by gossip and lost because not see the truth clearly. Almost to lost the friendship that I was once misunderstand. There is so much to learn in a period of life. It’s hard to be mature. I was foolish that I had been ~rewrap~. Not caring others and me too. Life sucks and friendship torn to something that I didn’t know. I was alone because what I choose the way to be. How foolish I am? Life needs to go on. God guide me.