An Impression of landscape...


























KLCC....an angle of sun set...
























does it gaves u the mood or not? What is it?
























Cloud of skies that got a sickles....























the public bank landscape...

SEDANG MEMBAIKI...



It's been a while that i had not blogging. I think my blog need to do some unmaintained for a while. One of my friend my blog is too emo. I think it's quite emo for this blog. EMO BLOG. I seems to emotional for a guy. Guy's emo world like it's very makes me like a pessimist. So lawrencent.blogspot are under maintenance

I had no ideas of topic...

It's been months that i had not blogging. This first new semester are really hard for me to adept it. Things are not the same anymore. New friends and new faces. I not so like changes. Although change is good for me too, but things that been get used for 3 months, everything need to do it again. Relationship need to built up again. Time need to be spend in assignment and studies which are my true priorities in my college life and friends too. When the time goes on, i see many real face of my friends in life. Who are caring friend and who are those can be throw away to dustbin. Things here are not as easy to adept at all. I will try my best.

Noob + Pride:

Noob + Pride, this is what I found myself in a game of volleyball. I recognize how weak I am in the sport and I still keep my pride high all the time. Yet i am not so good in something , yet no heart n i still pride. Pride, what a dangerous things in my life. I had sense that i am weak. I am pride even i am weak. I even pride in God's eyes. I am weak, I am strong, that what the Word had said, God gave us grace when we are weak. I need to improve my life and let myself down to humbleness. It is not easy to do. How comfort i am in my home? I realize it now. I sometimes regret the time i had wasted in my previous life. My mistakes. Self discipline is what i need to learn.

I hate it....

It’s been a long time I didn’t update my blog. I had not updated for 3 months since I come to the life here. Few days ago, my mood been full of cloud and negative thoughts keep wondering in my mind. I felt bored in here. I seems hard to get survive. Sometimes I neglected some friends in my college too. Sigh. Even I notice myself I got less accountable friend with me. Even my roommate, he not the one and he is even worse than me. A lonely heart dwells in him. Sigh. The football co-cum had held in college. I been try my best to make a ball kick but I can’t do it. I so disappointed to myself and I fail and fail so many times in football. I felt that I had no talent at all in football. I felt so shame of myself. What had happen to me? I had spoken f**k word every time and I still can’t get control of it. What happen to me? AHAH…..Is I still can’t get used? I felt alone. My old attitude rise back. I don’t want to fail my diploma and studies again. I been failed my STPM. Sigh. I write again the stupid title again like the past ago. Sigh…

My first sketch

It’s been the second week of my study life here. I went into the introduction to art and the lecturer gave us work which is sketching your hand phone. So I began to draw my phone. This is what I had done.

First edition





Second edition







There are some I edited by myself with Adobe Photoshop. It is just a simple editing only.

After I had done my sketching n gave it to the lecturer, she said that I done a quite good job and need to improve in toning and shadow skill oh. Really a bad sketch for me but at least I had done my best in it. So next time I can try my best to improve my sketching skill next time. I saw my friend artwork, he done a very nice sketch on his hand phone. He is a talented guy on art. I really amazed on him. This is my beginning of my learning life in here.

Life is Hard

Just 2 days, so many things need to learn and it's never been easy like in KL. I come here and start with zero. Things need to manage by myself. It's hard. At least, i got a friend and my sisters with me and my whole family to support me. So, i will not easily updated my blog because of the line here sucks and now my place no line. My friends those who are christian, pray for me. Thank You.

Leaving



I will be leaving to KL on 12 May to further my studies. For a long time in my very nice n peaceful hometown, it's time that i need to leave for my future n my maturity. I miss my home, my friends that I so care about,my colleagues, my Pardo, my parents and aunt and my church. I will miss all of them in here. So much of the precious memories in this town, Sandakan. I need remember each of them which lead me to what I am today. When I leave, things will never be same. Life in there also never be the same. I will said Good Bye to my comfort zone n go to a battlefield of life in there where i can learn n experience new things. Now, i just prepare before I leave my hometown. I will be back for CNY next year. God guide me in KL. So, everyone who still in this hometown take care of yourself. Bye.

Cherish While They Are Still Here

It’s been 2 months I had not updated my blog. I been lazy to updated it and busy with working in my own hometown. Cherish, a word that keep a great meaning in my life. I learn to cherish while my friends still here with me. Things changed, life change, people change. I remember the memories of all of my best pals in life come and help me in my life ups n downs. But now, things changed and some of them will not be close as we once are. I remember one of my friends who had lost contact with me. I still wonder how he is now. I still thinking what can I said to him since there are so much hurtful past in him? What words I can say to him? I do cherish my friend before he leaves us all to study. Miss him, my best pal. Cherish while they are still here, a words really good for those who had know its real meaning. Friends come and go, so cherish them while they are still here. If not, you will regret it one day. It’s never been easy to keep a friendship last long. The moment of the past had teach me to cherish while still can. I also think that it never easy to do so sometimes. Anyway, I hope all my friends are fine and healthy and been blessed by God all the days of their life. For my friends, I hope that we still keep in touch. God Bless all my loving friends.

Happy Chinese New Year 2008

As tradition, all members of the family will be back for Chinese New Year for a reunion dinner. Such traditional is a great concept of a family gathering as the draw the family together and strengthens the bonds between each others. Sincerely to said, I not fully like some of the traditional of my own race such as lion dance (bored at it), but I do respect on it. One of the meaningful traditions is reunion dinner. I like reunion dinner and I stated as an important event of my life. I great to see all my family member to be happy and chit chat. So happy to see the faces of smile and the sound of jokes come from them. All my sisters had back home and I do enjoy my fellowship with them all and our hang out together. I do miss them much as they are the one who loved me so much since I was small. Thank God for 2 sisters that so cared about me even what I had changed too. Just like an Malay idiom “air dicincang tidak akan diputus”, no matter what happen, we are still family. Thank You, God, for blessed all the time and we endure the time together. My sister had said to me, I’m more matured than I used to be. I quite glad for me that she saw me happy and not as I was, who once sad for no reason. It’s a new year; life has to be changed for the better. God guide me through out my maturity. I do meet my friends who had back from all places from where they studies. They all back for the CNY. I’m glad to see them in a smiling face. Many people had changed and more matured. Time goes by so fast. I also see myself had changed too. One thing is important although so much changed in time which is appreciate people surround you; who cared and love you. One more thing which is the most vital of all, the intimate relationship with God. Thank you, God. Happy Chinese New Year to all. Have a nice pai nian yah. God Bless.

It's Christmas Eve


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Tonight, my beautiful and old church will having a dinner and carol events. I hope i can enjoy the time in it. It's christmas eve. Christmas is all about our Saviour, Jesus Christ came to this world to redeem us all in 2 thousand years ago. God sent Him to us to save us all from the bondage of sin. How great is He who had sent His only son top redeem us all. Christmas is not all about santa, shopping and giving. It's a celebration that God had came to save us all. The hope He has given throughout this season had make us free. That's what all christmas about. In this modern world, Tv and media always impact and influence the mind of people to believe santa and etc but Jesus. Christmas, a message to all the world that they can be saved by believing Him as their personal Saviour and gave your life to Him. It's a free gift to heaven. God Bless U all. MERRY CHRISTMAS.

A Glimpse Of Memories

Just today onward, it’s the days I will face the real world. A glimpse of memories of 2 years will store in my mind. As today is the last days at school, my form 6 school, sung siew secondary school, there is quite much I miss those moments. Memories of the past plus the present, so much I had learned from these years. Learning to communicate, learn to see people, and etc. I got some friends I know since the last 2 years in my school. Anyway, it’s just a memory that will keep in me. When time goes by, many things will change, people will change, all change but God will not changed. A step to the society world after my own STPM exam and planning for my own future. A glimpse of memories as dwell in my mind as the days goes by. May the pasts’ mistakes become teaching in the future. For not dwell anymore in the past and learn to forget it. Sweet and bitter memories. For now, I just want to get well in my STPM exam. God help me this time. God bless u all that is in SPM and STPM exams. God Bless.

Just Get On

After receive effective comments from someone I don’t know, I just need go on in my life and take changes inside of me. It’s been right; no one can save me beside myself. No more sad and negative character. Now just left 43 days to STPM, do what I can and be in the Lord’s guide always. It’s just me to take the change of myself and I need to be mature. No more childish thoughts. Sorry for those who offended in the previous achieve. Just get it on and continue to get a blessed life with God. No more self pity, control my flesh and get a good results and bear consequences. That’s all. Thanks for the comments.

True friend are hard to find

Friends. Hard to know what the really meaning of “friend”, especially true friend. It is very hard to find true friends. There is some friend close with u just for taking some advantages from me. Some those lie and cheat me for a certain purpose to not reveal their secret darkness and sins. Some are not truthful. I got one among the friends that I know whom just close to me for certain events and matters. I hate such things happen to me. What have I chosen all the time? Have I done something wrong? So much of kindness draw unto them, they just blind and not repay what I have done to them. Am I taking something that I had given? I don’t know. Some got see what I had done but there is some got see what i had done on them but still not close to me. Is that I not sacrifice much in them. Is that I’m not take some time to know what happen to them? What happen? Time changed, people changed. People changed, friendship changed. So much in life that I need to learn. Is that sometimes I not spend much time in them? What about me? Do they spend their time in me? Do they know what really happen to me? Thank God that I still have my 3 best pals and my own sisters and family. Maybe I should be grateful for what I have? But sometimes, when I back to school or church, I didn’t sense the presence of closeness friendship, some are on their own business, some with others, some had their work to do. For works, I don’t mind much but for those who always mind their own business, I not like it. Hey, what I had done in your life is that useless and hopeless at all? Y u just minds your own business than go to care me? Is that I done something wrong in their life? I really don’t know at all. Something I done wrong, they didn’t tell. Only those who are really close with me, especially my best pals, they told me. Thank God for He had given me such close friends who really help me. Sigh…I really don’t understand sometimes, y such things happen in my surrounding? I thought it come to an end since I left secondary school. Sigh. At least, I still got some who really cares for me. Be grateful always. One things at all, God never changed. He is the real True and Best friend at all times.

Old Memories

The pictures is like a reflection of the old memories. Old memories come to my mind when I see the old pictures of the past. Many thoughts come to my mind. During those times, we all were happy. I did all that I didn’t think of what I had done it before. Happy, sadness, crazy and foolish moments of the past. Things change fast. Time tick fast too. Those old memories that make me joy and sorrow. The happiness times with my best gang, the past and sad tragedy, mission trip moments, helping to make events such as concerts and camps moments, and etc. Although it was happy and sorrow those precious moments but things change now. Last night, I called my best friend in KK, things and people change when u gets older. He himself also was changed. I saw so many of my best pals in the gang of friends had change. Time past, people change, things change, surrounding change and me also change. People change now. My once best pal become common pal, their mind set change and I began not to suite their kind of thinking. Many problems when I grow up. Relationship problems, friendship problems, study problems, and many more. Things make me to grow up and be mature. My surrounding friends also change due to their surrounding. Change in their mind set, perspectives in life and people and etc. The closeness I had in them had change since the friendship gone into problem. Besides that, I might cause some problem by myself but sometimes I do no what I have done. Trust…sigh. People will changed, but God never change at all. That’s what important. Happy moments were the past. Sorrow moments were the past too. Past is past, gone is gone, lost is lost, just accept the situation although things goes wrong and try to make it well back. If can’t, just let it to God. A friend of mine, a best friend too will go to KL to study; yet all of my friends will miss him. He will be left, so I just accept it. I might be sad for I missed so much in our friendship but things will change. Just go my life. I will try to keep myself to keep in touch with them all. I don’t want a situation when 10 years later we meet back will be nothing to said. I hope God still sustain my friendship with all my friends who are close. Things change, people change but God never changes. When people change, just accept it. When u done a wrong step, just don’t regret it and think to get it done till u have to let it to God. Think well before I take a step. Make decision well. Practice more to improve myself. Things gone, it had gone so just stand up and get going. Memories just become a moment to reflect what u had wrong and what u have done in persons’ life. Old Memories are good to reflect back in my mind but not dwell in it. Past had past, so get going towards. That’s all. God Bless all my friends and you all.

Been matured

There is so much to learn in life. A few days ago, I learn to see a friend’s character. Deal with difficult situation with a good way. Learn to stand up. Learn to be mature in mind, physical and soul. Just life there is too much to learn. So much till u can’t learn all of them but what is more important is God. My life messed up because I lost Him. I’m not depending on Him all the time. I not put Him first. I tend to done it by myself. I lazy. That what Danny said to me? Really makes me learn something in life. Life just not about having a girl friend (for me lah), have fun all the time but life is about serving and glorifying God. What I lost all the time? My relationship with Him. His presence in me. His love is what really matters to me. What more to said is just get into Him. The others becoming second. I just need to learn that kind of relationship with Him. Close one. God guide me all the way and according to Your will. Just as:

Matthew 6:33 :

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Haiz.....

Just been guilty for what has done for the past. Spread somethings that not true to others like gossip spread out yet the person is innocent. It had done and makes me guilty and simpathy to the person. The tragedy all was just a misunderstanding. Last year, tragedy just simply a misunderstanding when not confronting with the person that had make wrong in front of my eyes. What more can do? Pass is pass. Gulity was felt in my heart for what i had make a person's name spoil because of my words. So sorry for her for what i had done for a long time? Since our friendship was broken, and now was been repaired and better. I was so sorry for what i had said to my friends that she is not good. Yet she is innocent. Sigh, what more can do? Sorry....i pray that i will not make the same mistakes again. God guide me all the time.

LEARNING

There is so much to learn in life. So much, yesterday i had learn. Learn to sacrifice at good friends life. Learn to communicate and deal with a problem. Life sometimes can said is a process of learning. So much things happen in my life, sad and happy, just need to go on. Me just think negative site always. It's time to think what is positive now. I hope i can deal with it well. Love, Truth & Faith, is what is essential in friendship. God guide me all the way.

DONNO....

Life just seems hard to move on or me just self pity. Friends tend to say me something or I been bad. Sucks…sucks…sucks….y I always said suck…..life in comfort zones seems more not to suites to me now. Which to go out but I didn’t put effort on it? How to go out from this zone? How? HOW? Studies so suck and just seems want to give up. I don’t want to do so. Give up is more sucks later. Y I’m suck? I know…is just I was lazy. Wasted 1 year to play and have fun. WASTED…WASTED…lost, lazy and sleeper. Y me can’t wait till the end that I can rest as much as I can, play as much as I can and etc? WHY? I lost a part to the world. LOST…i need to go up again. EVERY DAY STRUGGLE TO battles my flesh. Lose most of the time. Guys…who are those to hold the responsible? Search what is love? Love is from God. Just at 1 Corinthians 13:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Help myself is the way. Hoping u guys who read this gave some comment what should I do and overcome?

Appreciate what u got….

Appreciate what u got. That’s what I learn from my sister blog. Friends are there to you to be care of them. To be a brother in Christ among them. Time was there for me to study. A foolish acts of me that I not appreciate at the most of them. Things go bad because what moves I make. I realized there still friends really care me, God care me and I am not alone at all. My friends were far from me, but still understand me. My life are been help by them that God so blessed to gave me them. God actually help me much in life through the vessel of blessing of my friends in other places. I just blind from the lies of the devil and make me do foolish act that might hurt them. Lord guides me. I now need to appreciate what I have now. Once I left my hometown, life needs to restart again. Thank You, God for so much you had help me even I been hurt u before. Let me the man after Your own heart, Lord. For what u had been said to me last year. Guide me to be a caring and humble person that can reflect the glories of Your name. In Jesus name, I prayed. Amen.