Old Memories

The pictures is like a reflection of the old memories. Old memories come to my mind when I see the old pictures of the past. Many thoughts come to my mind. During those times, we all were happy. I did all that I didn’t think of what I had done it before. Happy, sadness, crazy and foolish moments of the past. Things change fast. Time tick fast too. Those old memories that make me joy and sorrow. The happiness times with my best gang, the past and sad tragedy, mission trip moments, helping to make events such as concerts and camps moments, and etc. Although it was happy and sorrow those precious moments but things change now. Last night, I called my best friend in KK, things and people change when u gets older. He himself also was changed. I saw so many of my best pals in the gang of friends had change. Time past, people change, things change, surrounding change and me also change. People change now. My once best pal become common pal, their mind set change and I began not to suite their kind of thinking. Many problems when I grow up. Relationship problems, friendship problems, study problems, and many more. Things make me to grow up and be mature. My surrounding friends also change due to their surrounding. Change in their mind set, perspectives in life and people and etc. The closeness I had in them had change since the friendship gone into problem. Besides that, I might cause some problem by myself but sometimes I do no what I have done. Trust…sigh. People will changed, but God never change at all. That’s what important. Happy moments were the past. Sorrow moments were the past too. Past is past, gone is gone, lost is lost, just accept the situation although things goes wrong and try to make it well back. If can’t, just let it to God. A friend of mine, a best friend too will go to KL to study; yet all of my friends will miss him. He will be left, so I just accept it. I might be sad for I missed so much in our friendship but things will change. Just go my life. I will try to keep myself to keep in touch with them all. I don’t want a situation when 10 years later we meet back will be nothing to said. I hope God still sustain my friendship with all my friends who are close. Things change, people change but God never changes. When people change, just accept it. When u done a wrong step, just don’t regret it and think to get it done till u have to let it to God. Think well before I take a step. Make decision well. Practice more to improve myself. Things gone, it had gone so just stand up and get going. Memories just become a moment to reflect what u had wrong and what u have done in persons’ life. Old Memories are good to reflect back in my mind but not dwell in it. Past had past, so get going towards. That’s all. God Bless all my friends and you all.

Been matured

There is so much to learn in life. A few days ago, I learn to see a friend’s character. Deal with difficult situation with a good way. Learn to stand up. Learn to be mature in mind, physical and soul. Just life there is too much to learn. So much till u can’t learn all of them but what is more important is God. My life messed up because I lost Him. I’m not depending on Him all the time. I not put Him first. I tend to done it by myself. I lazy. That what Danny said to me? Really makes me learn something in life. Life just not about having a girl friend (for me lah), have fun all the time but life is about serving and glorifying God. What I lost all the time? My relationship with Him. His presence in me. His love is what really matters to me. What more to said is just get into Him. The others becoming second. I just need to learn that kind of relationship with Him. Close one. God guide me all the way and according to Your will. Just as:

Matthew 6:33 :

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Haiz.....

Just been guilty for what has done for the past. Spread somethings that not true to others like gossip spread out yet the person is innocent. It had done and makes me guilty and simpathy to the person. The tragedy all was just a misunderstanding. Last year, tragedy just simply a misunderstanding when not confronting with the person that had make wrong in front of my eyes. What more can do? Pass is pass. Gulity was felt in my heart for what i had make a person's name spoil because of my words. So sorry for her for what i had done for a long time? Since our friendship was broken, and now was been repaired and better. I was so sorry for what i had said to my friends that she is not good. Yet she is innocent. Sigh, what more can do? Sorry....i pray that i will not make the same mistakes again. God guide me all the time.

LEARNING

There is so much to learn in life. So much, yesterday i had learn. Learn to sacrifice at good friends life. Learn to communicate and deal with a problem. Life sometimes can said is a process of learning. So much things happen in my life, sad and happy, just need to go on. Me just think negative site always. It's time to think what is positive now. I hope i can deal with it well. Love, Truth & Faith, is what is essential in friendship. God guide me all the way.

DONNO....

Life just seems hard to move on or me just self pity. Friends tend to say me something or I been bad. Sucks…sucks…sucks….y I always said suck…..life in comfort zones seems more not to suites to me now. Which to go out but I didn’t put effort on it? How to go out from this zone? How? HOW? Studies so suck and just seems want to give up. I don’t want to do so. Give up is more sucks later. Y I’m suck? I know…is just I was lazy. Wasted 1 year to play and have fun. WASTED…WASTED…lost, lazy and sleeper. Y me can’t wait till the end that I can rest as much as I can, play as much as I can and etc? WHY? I lost a part to the world. LOST…i need to go up again. EVERY DAY STRUGGLE TO battles my flesh. Lose most of the time. Guys…who are those to hold the responsible? Search what is love? Love is from God. Just at 1 Corinthians 13:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Help myself is the way. Hoping u guys who read this gave some comment what should I do and overcome?

Appreciate what u got….

Appreciate what u got. That’s what I learn from my sister blog. Friends are there to you to be care of them. To be a brother in Christ among them. Time was there for me to study. A foolish acts of me that I not appreciate at the most of them. Things go bad because what moves I make. I realized there still friends really care me, God care me and I am not alone at all. My friends were far from me, but still understand me. My life are been help by them that God so blessed to gave me them. God actually help me much in life through the vessel of blessing of my friends in other places. I just blind from the lies of the devil and make me do foolish act that might hurt them. Lord guides me. I now need to appreciate what I have now. Once I left my hometown, life needs to restart again. Thank You, God for so much you had help me even I been hurt u before. Let me the man after Your own heart, Lord. For what u had been said to me last year. Guide me to be a caring and humble person that can reflect the glories of Your name. In Jesus name, I prayed. Amen.

{REWRAP}

It’s been 4 months that I not been blog. It’s been a long time that my old and caring friend, Joash had gone to Tawau. I miss my friend so much. Words that he had help me much all this time. Words that he encouraged me to be brave in communication, becoming a positive person and caring person. Every advice still got some memories in me. I had been told that I was once a guy who was rewrap into a present paper that warp in a box. I stuck there for a long time that I struggle to came out. I had out from the box and the present paper, to see what beyond me, my own thinking. Think out of the box that what he mostly mention. My story begins from my secondary school hood; I was once a negative and angry person. Life sucks during that moment. Been alone is not fun at all. Since I enter form 6, I realized that I just think negatively all the time. Been alone and unhappy person, I was less been approach by friends around me. They hard to realized what am I thinking about. Those words really change my life; I began to post an archive from my blog since then. His words had changed me much. Not him also, my other caring friend, Augustine also help me much in my life too. Since after the tragedy, I rewrap back. I foolishly take steps to ~rewrap~ my own self again. For almost a year or half year, I had been negative again. I thought I was hurt deeply but it’s just a misunderstanding. Last night and 2 days ago, I realized so many things from some friends, the tragedy had been healed and solve is due to everyone weakness, the 2 faces friends that I realized in my life, and selfishness dwell in my group of friends. What happen actually? I so realized so many things that it’s hurt me much and makes me confused. I realized that it’s better to give than receive. That is what I done last year. I stop doing so because misunderstanding and hurts that dwell in me all the time. Blind by gossip and lost because not see the truth clearly. Almost to lost the friendship that I was once misunderstand. There is so much to learn in a period of life. It’s hard to be mature. I was foolish that I had been ~rewrap~. Not caring others and me too. Life sucks and friendship torn to something that I didn’t know. I was alone because what I choose the way to be. How foolish I am? Life needs to go on. God guide me.

Is my cross standing at a site?

Is my cross standing at a way between the road to hell and heaven? Is my cross that i should bear had stand in a place and I walk on my own. It's does happen to me. I was walk on my own. My own ways, pleasure, freedom and desire. I was exchausted, tired and dry up. For I was walk on my own. The cross represent the suffering and pain I will endure in the walk of life to eternity. I had put it aside in the way to Heaven. Walk on my own desire had makes me suffer. I falled to my past and worried of future. I didn't control myself. I been scolded or puting false hope in my friends and family. What had happen to me? This all because I put my cross aside in the road. I cry to the Lord for what I have done. Lord, I lifted my sorrow and failure to you. Lord, forgive me that I had put my cross aside. My cross once lifted high in the way to You. Now Lord, I want to lifted the standing cross and bear it to walk for the days of my life.

The word of God said:
Luke 8:34 said:
"Then he called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me."

I want to carried back my own cross to walk back. Lord, guide me. After 29 days after the new years, i failed many test of my school studies. Lord, guide me to be hardworking and filled with the Holy Spirit to work. I will not gamble for my own future. God, surely You are there to guide me in my life.

A word of God that my friend, angela who had help me to refers at.It had refresh my soul:

Luke 8:4-15 (New International Version)

While a large crowd was gathering and people were coming to Jesus from town after town, he told this parable: "A farmer went out to sow his seed. As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path; it was trampled on, and the birds of the air ate it up. Some fell on rock, and when it came up, the plants withered because they had no moisture. Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up with it and choked the plants. Still other seed fell on good soil. It came up and yielded a crop, a hundred times more than was sown."

When he said this, he called out, "He who has ears to hear, let him hear."

His disciples asked him what this parable meant. He said, "The knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom of God has been given to you, but to others I speak in parables, so that,

" 'though seeing, they may not see;
though hearing, they may not understand.'

"This is the meaning of the parable: The seed is the word of God. Those along the path are the ones who hear, and then the devil comes and takes away the word from their hearts, so that they may not believe and be saved. Those on the rock are the ones who receive the word with joy when they hear it, but they have no root. They believe for a while, but in the time of testing they fall away. The seed that fell among thorns stands for those who hear, but as they go on their way they are choked by life's worries, riches and pleasures, and they do not mature. But the seed on good soil stands for those with a noble and good heart, who hear the word, retain it, and by persevering produce a crop.

Weakness…

Now was 25 day after New Year, I had been for some days in certain mood and seasons. Just now been quarrel with my father for his car. Sick of him because he has no patient to me at all and no faith at me. He just simply thinks of his own car and never let me independent to drive the family car. Why he never thinks that his son will take care of his car although he has weakness on driving? He can simply teach instead of scolding all the time. Last time when my sister get a car license, she just drive for a while and make some minor scratch in the car, my father completely didn’t allow her to drive the car. I was weak recently. I was lazy and playful. Enjoying the freedom in school without proper ways of studies. Sleep mostly. It’s seems I had forgotten my goal and aims in my life. Life is too comfort in this small town of Sandakan. Just a few days, I just know what is my goal in life which are I got to get a scholarship after STPM and tried to get to study at Singapore. Can I make these goals to happen? I am confused. I see my studies had left for so many chapters a year ago. I’m lazy and playful when I was in school last year. Thought the last year camp I did learn something but I didn’t apply it all. I quite bad and I were not as honest as I was. I quite pride and thinking that I can do it all. In reality, I was not. Self-discipline matters. This what I had lack for a year ago. I lack of it till I didn’t bother my homework and future. Teachers had given so much advice that I should study hard and smart because the future is in my hand. I do listen to them and trying to apply in my life but I didn’t apply all. Is that I was too lazy to do my homework and lies too much to my friend that saying I’m busy. Certain time, I was surfing in the Internet for many hours till I forgot my work to do. I lack of my self-control. Is the self-esteem makes me like this? I really don’t know. I will try to make the first step to study. Now I quite have done it. I might need to read many books for my knowledge in my blank brain. Sigh…weakness in me. I need to control myself now. God help me.

Histories of 2006, New Resolutions Of 2007

The past of 2006 had gone by yesterday time pass through 12 a clock. The past was a great memory in my life. The year of breakthrough, hurts, experiences, failures, sufferings, God’s miracles, healing, comforting, friendship strengthen, and etc. This blog as began at April 2006. The began of the event called Festival Of Praise 2006 in St Michael church, my own church. The archive said the event that will change my life. It really changes my life styles. 2 years ago, I was a guy that so silent, complain, sensitive, negative and selfish. I was remembering when I always complain about this and that when I was in the some camp, I was always complain about the food, accommodation and etc. How silly I was that day? The year 2006, I was begun to work as a youth volunteer at my church for 3 month. After days after the beginning of the work, I and my best pal and bro, ah chuen go for training for 2 weeks in Telupid. At there I was learn to be grateful, positive and keep my faith in God. There was the time when I learn to talk and communicate well, be brave when talk to a girl. When the event, Festival of Praise, it was an event that help me to stand myself up to walk the road as a Christian. Taking the cross of Jesus Christ is not easy. After it, the dance called Not Ashamed by planet shakers album, Evermore. That began I suddenly dwell into a misunderstanding relationship with a girl. It was a hard and hurtful times to endure the pain of been rejected but many people help me, advice me and share to carry my burden. Thank God for my sis, Jenny, my best pals, Gabriel, Ah Chuen, Joash and etc. It was not easy to forget a person that I love but I can go through it by God and my best friends that helps me. So much things that I had happen in my life, I began to have many girl friends and have a good relationship with God, be humble and grateful, be brave and courage to face the problems in my life, getting know a gal from school who had been my little sis and etc. A friend of mine in KK, Pearle also helps me much through the year and advice me much through the spiritual life with God. She advice me not to dwell in the past and stand strong to go forward in life. Thank you for your advice my friend. I began to lower my type of friend that I will get know. I began to know new friends from the Impact Generation camp 2006. I began to know Joseph who was a kind and caring guy, Joy Ng who easy to forget my face…hehe, Michele Liew, a gal who was friendly, Debra who was my big sis’s friend and friendly too, Soo Man, Amos, Adam, Vanessa, Enfee and George Lai who was a guy I know in sdk. Besides them, I also had know some new friends. In the camp, I had been through many breakthroughs in worship and prayers. I began to courage up to pray to God and heard calling in the camp. I met my sis, Jenny and others from tell the world camp 2005. A month ago from the camp, I had gone to a mission trip at sugut, paitan and nangod in the interior of Sabah. There I was learned that I was grateful and blessed life in my hometown. The places in there got many people still have not know God yet and the love of God. That why the places still need us as Christian to care, loves and spread the love of God to them. Tell them that they still have hope. There I was learned to work together with my Bm friends in the church. There was I learned the fellowship of brother and sister in Christ when working together to serve. Many things I had learned throughout the year 2006. It is time to make new things in my life in this New Year 2007. I want to be more strong in faith in God, serve Him wholeheartedly, restore broken relationships with friends, make new friends, help each and other in my life, less go out to cyber, use money wisely, began to play back my old guitar, play new songs, put my whole effort in my studies, think twice before doing something or talk to someone, read the whole bible this year, and spend more of my time with God. Thank you God for the blessing that you had given to me. God will guide me throughout the days of my life. Thank you, God.

Chrismas Day Celebration.....

A week ago, my friends and I busy preparing the presentations for Christmas Eve, 24 December 2006. All of us were tired and exhausted for the dance and sketch that we are preparing for God. It was tired and busy days a week ago because almost 7 days every week after back from Impact Generation camp, we got to start working for the presentation because it’s just a 2 weeks later. It was fun and exciting. Though it was very tired till less of sleep, we had learn that our relationship with God had strengthen and the relationship of each of others in the dance team. But there some of us had not strengthened the relationship. It’s depends to them. So many things I had learned this year, the year of breakthrough I can pronounce it. Though the pass hurts and sadness has gone, it help me to learn to stand up for Jesus, stand up to walk this road to a close relationship with God. On Christmas day, I get 3 gifts; one of it was a beautiful and funky t-shirt from my closest friend, Gabriel. It was cool and great to have a t-shirt. One of it is a multi-purpose thing, I don’t how to described it and one is a gift I yet not received yet from 2 beautiful gals in the youth gangs. I hope next year is the year to advance for the Lord. The year that I learned to face, the year of suffering of study for the exam called STPM. God, You will lead me till the end.

IMPACT GENERATION CAMP…

A few weeks ago, my friends and I go to the diocese English youth camp held in All Saints’ Cathedral, KK. Our church youth, which are around 30 people, had joined the camp. It was a great camp that I had ever joined before. The first camp that I had so much breakthrough in it. What matters the most is the relationship with God has been increased into a deeper level. It was fun and great. The worship was great. I get know many new friends and meet my loving sister in the camp. I was miss my sister so much. She was the mentor of my spiritual life in my relationship with God. Anyways, I do no why recently I do no what to type in my blog. Here’s some picture in the camp. It’s was a great moment in my life.

I need to blame the camera man for his/her skill. Just kiding for the camera man. LOL...too blurr...Hey, why ah zung see the sky? Oh...he must see some chicks up there..haha..


The sneaker of the year, that's me. I'm innocent. Don't shoot me. The face...lol. Sneak at 3 person head. If you see clearly, Gabriel's mouth still got chicken in it. Haha. A pirate eyes at my back..hehe..just kiding my friend.


The awesome, delicious and juicy maggi mee that i'm eating.Wah so deliciciuos that look whle it may work to tempt others to eat. LOL..hey eric is promoting the handphone.


It's ah zung's birthday. He is so happy with the double chocolate cake, CAKIE. Haha, it's just a moisture chocolate cake with some grapes on it.


The cutting of cakie by ah zung. Wah waiting to eat it delicious cake....Nyam Nyam...


I and my sister, jenny in the camp at the last night of the camp. Miss her so much....


Our Xone gangs of St Michael Church, hey...why ah chuen at the back like want to bless us?? Haha...

Thank you, God for giving me a life that so blessed and joyful.

On Mission.....

Starting by tommorow, i will be going a short term mission trip to nangod, sugut and paitan (interior of Sabah) for 3 days and 2 night. Going to spread the gospel of God to the lost souls. May God protects me. I prayed that He will guide all of the mission team all the days of our trip.

Speechless......

I had been bored and speechless yesterday. Do no what had happen to me? Sigh..donno wat to say. That why i put the title"speechless". 2 more days , i will go to mission to Sugut in the interior of Sabah. Hope i can do well. Sigh....

Thank you God ('',)

Thank You God.

For You had guide till this days.

Though there was been many seasons.

Seasons of joy and sorrow.

Though it is hard to endure

but worth to do it.

For it bring to the eternal life,

a close relationship to You, Lord.

God, i thank you that given me friends

that guide me, bear my burden,

share my emotions, listen to me and share joy.

Thanks that You had given me, 2 loving sister,

though they were busy in their life,

still take some times to help me,

loving me and cares for me.

Lord, i thank You for them.

Till now You had guide me.

To path of a close relationship with You.

Thank You, God.

Psalm 27


The Lord is my light and my salvation
so why should I afraid?
The Lord protects me from danger
so why should I tremble?
When evil people come to destroy me,
when my enemies and foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
Though a mighty army surrounds me,
my heart will know no fear.
Even if they attack me, I remain confident.
The one thing I ask of the Lord
the things I seek most
is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
delighting in the Lord's perfections
and meditating in his Temple.
For he will conceal me there when troubles come;

he will hide me in his sanctuary.

He will place me out of reach on a high rock.

Then I will hold my head high,

above my enemies who surround me.

At his Tabernacle I will offer sacrifices

with shouts of joy,

singing and praising the Lord with music.

Listen to my pleading, O Lord.

Be merciful and answer me!

My heart has heard you say,

"Come and talk with me."

And my heart responds, "Lord, I am coming."

Do not hide yourself from me.

Do not reject your servant in anger.

You have always been my helper.

Don;t leave me now; don't abandon me,

O God of my salvation!

Even if my father and mother abandon me,

the Lord will hold me close.

Teach me how to live, O Lord.

Lead me along the path of honesty,

for my enemies are waiting for me to fall.

Do not let me fall into my hands.

for they accuse me of things I've never done

and breathe out violence against me.

Yet I am confident that I will see the Lord's goodness

while I am here in the land of the living.

Wait patiently for the Lord.

Be brave and courageous.

Yes, wit patiently for the Lord.

(Scripture from New Living Translation Bible)

Failed…




I had failed. I failed my exam. I get the second lowest in my class. I was wondering what had happen to me. I still don’t know where I want to study in my future. I seem hopeless and sad. Many things had happened to my life. Misunderstanding relationship, friends will or might go to leave my hometown, church life, talking skill, fake mask, and others. What happen to me? I wasted so much time in this year. Till now I don’t know what I want to do in my future. It’s waste me a year. Sigh…sigh…seems hopeless to me. I have faith in God that He will lead me but I myself having problems. I want this and I want that. Sigh…. I also wasted my parent’s money to play at cyber cafes. Wasted so much money. Why did I go there to play? I hate to bore. I want to get off from boredom. In this age, many things changed. People surrounding had changed. Some were good and some were bad. Thank God for those who had changed to good. I now was self-pity. I have sin against God. I keep doing things that I should not do even I had prayed to God. Sigh. The person or character that I hate the most is hypocrite. Even I myself almost like them. Sigh. Sigh. I’m confused. I also want a girl friend in this time. Sigh. So I can know girls more and more. I’m 18 now and still never dated before. I know God will give the best but I’m not patient and causing myself hurt during the misunderstanding relationship recently. During the moment, I was hurt and rejected. What I had lacked off? Is that I’m not handsome enough or good enough? A guy who loves God and a heart to serve God, she can’t see. Sigh. I let it. Just continue the friendship. I’m too selfish during that time. I felt I was wasted so much time on it till my study had been neglected. Not the moment too, I’m too caring for my “kei mui” too, I was cared her till she was sensitive too me. What should I do? Serve man is never been easy. That’s why my sis told me that I should serve God because it’s eternal. I still confused of myself and I felt I was a failure. Sigh. Lord what should I do? Guide me, Jesus. For you are my strength and comforter. Jesus guides me till the eternity. Sigh…

Friends.....

Friends. It really matters to me for my life. They shared with me. My sorrow, sadness, serving, happiness, and etc. The friends that helps me is my friends in church. They impact my life to serve God. I thanls God that He has given friends that helps me and guide me. Hehe....in the upside pic, the first guy from left is my best friend, Gabriel then Rev Clarence Fu, our new rector of St Michael Church, then Fei Ping, a friend and leader to me in my youth fellowship and in worship team and the last guy is me who wear bodyglove t-shirt. I not so know my rector because i quite scare him. Donno why. I know him is a vision man and godly man. This picture is taken from the BM JAM+2 concert a month ago. Friend in my church had help me much in my life. We work together and go around together. It was a great moment in my life in church. Yet sometimes i felt alone because i don't have a girl friend but God has given me friends that cares me by my side. A month ago, i got some problems in my life. A misunderstanding relationship with a close girl friend of mine. She is too close to me till I was misunderstood of her and I began have feeling on her. I said my feeling to her that i got some feeling to her, she just said that i just been a good friend to her. Nothing more than that. I had been make 3 times confirmation on it and yet she said the same. It's makes me hurts because of this misunderstanding but teaches me to patiently wait from God that He will provide a best girl friend to me. I am still single and never been date before. Just sometimes, when I'm 18 years old, these kind of feeling that bring me to find a gal for me. But i still not yet mature and responsible, so I wait and prayed to God about it.

Lazy to talk more on it. Just makes me think too much on it then think negative on it. Today, i was lazy to go to school. Yesterday, i was too tired in the church. I slept late then in my youth cell time, they play games in the hill in Taman Tshun Ngen. The places were hard to trek. I was been already too tired because lackness of rest yet need to trek the hill ah. It's makes me too tired. Then I need to back to church to practise carolling and interchurch worship practise, makes me more tired. I was too busy to run there around in the church to take cables and sit back to the sits of choirs. I was one of the choirs in the interchurch project. Yet that moment I need to help my friend, Wai yee to help in sound management. Makes me more tired and no mood to talk. Yet i need some words of encouragement at my side, no one said it to me. Sigh but some of them still can ask me how r u?

Friends really matters to me. For me, friends that put me in their heart matters to me. I thank for friends that cares me a lot in my youth life. I really miss my brother in Christ, Ah Chuen in KK. He is the guy that guides me much in my church life. Gabriel and Joash too. This 3 guys had help me much in my life. They were my 3 best friends in my life. Girls ah. Less because I still donno how to talk with girls yet. But I will try my best to cherish my friendship with my girl friends. I admit that I am quite a silent person. Maybe is that reason that i seldom talk much with girls la. Now I was still learning to get know with girls. I will know that God will guide me in my life. I wish that I will be in the youth camp earlier so I can get know more girls. Hehe. I need to cherish my friends that guide me much. Thank you God for you given me friends.

Living Out From Fantasy World. A Step In A Real World......

It has been a long time i had not updated my blog. My pc condemn for a month already. Now just get fixed up. As we were teen, we tend to see many kind of entertainment. Entertainment such as watching drama, movie, tv, playing computer games, disco, and etc. It's normal for us human to seek entertainment because we need to release our stress, problem and bored. Mostly we tend to live in a fantasy world from the entertainment. If we too obsess to entertainment (playing computer ganes or watch movie, drama or tv), we will fantay in it. For example, we fantasy about the lovers in a love drama or fansay of being a victorious warrior in a adventureous world in the computer games. If we too fantasy about it, we might or will live in those fantasy. Living in the fantasy world cause us to avoid to be real in a real world. Certain problems in our life, we should not in a fantasy mode (dreaming not to face the problem). Instead, we should responsible on the problem that we had done and find ways to save it. It's better to find ways to solve it than just dreaming or fantasy in the mind. It waste time to fantasy. It saves our time when we go to find ways to solve the problem instead leaving it alone or lazy to deal it. One thing that is we should seek God's help to help us to solve the matter. We can't solve the problems in our lofe by ourself because our strength are limited. If we do it by our own strength till the final stage, we will get tired, depress and no mood. By God, we can did it. God will guide us in it and he will bless us more than we expected. It's help us to strengthen our faith in Him. Anyways, it better for us to solve it in a real world than just leave it and fantasy in tv or etc.

Gossip.....A Plague That Destroy Relationship......

Gossip.....A plague that will destroy relationship. It just like a fire burns the whole village. Gossip had been a bad things in life. Why people love to gossip? Aren't they will bored of gossip people that is innocent. Even it is real, speak frankly to the person that should know. Why people need to spread gossip that can hurt people. Haven't they think that when other person gossip at them, how will they fell. It's very hurtful. Even it can make people not trusted to the person who gossip around and the people around him/her. It's makes relationship broken. If the member of a team or an organization will split up into different group and will not united together. Gossip is like a plague that had affected people in my hometown. A single gossip can make people not trust you again. If a gossip spread around in a church, the church will not united as one body. We will fall apart and unable to united together to serving God. That why I sick of gossip and lies. I decided to speak frankly and honestly. I had known the consequences of spreading gossip. It was cruel thing that had hurt much people. As christian, we must not gossip. We must encourage our friends and leader all the time instead of spreading cruel and hurtful gossip.
In James 3: 2 - 6 in the Bible (New Living Translation):

"We all make many mistakes, but those who control their tongues can also themselves in every other way. We can make a large horse turn around and go wherever we want by means of a small bit in its mouth. And a tiny rubber makes a huge ship turn wherever the pilot wants it to go, even though the winds are strong. So also, the tongue is a small thing, but what enormous damage it can do. A tiny spark can get a great forest on fire. And the tongue is a flame of fire. It is full of wickness that can ruin your whole life. It can turn the entire course of your life into a blazing flame of destruction, for it is set on fire by hell itself."

That is why gossip is a bad things in our life. It hurt people heart. Just like backstab a person.

What Happens When We Lie?
• We damage relationships with others

• We poison our own soul
Psalms 58: 3 – 4 “Even from birth the wicked go astray; from the womb they are wayward and speak lies. Their venom is like the venom of a snake, like that of a cobra that has stopped its ears.”

• We will face God’s judgment
Revelations 21: 8 “…all liars - their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death.”

: A one of the weekly sermon at Church of Holy Saviour, Labuan http://www.cohs.info/sermons.htm

We should speak frankly to people because gossip hurt people's heart. If a heart had been hurt, it's hard to heal. The truth will set you free.